+::StArRy NiTE::+

2011-10-15T11:21:00.003+08:00

受委屈还得往肚里吞
心想寻求一种安慰，却只听到令人更心寒的话语
是该感到失望，
还是该怪自己没用，竟然让情绪包围及控制自己

但是，始终也知道，不该让人难做，也只好继续委屈下去。

2011-08-09T20:21:00.002+08:00

kind of sian that i didnt get to watch live fireworks this year. oh wells.

anyway restless at home today, but still, happy birthday singapore! (:

cant wait to go on a holiday. wanna do some research and readings but just so not motivated. but i know i need to do them sooner or later, somebody please push me a little, hmm or a little bit more? i need my happy food!!! argh. and my all time favourite, lao ban dou hua! i want lao ban i want lao ban i want lao ban i want lao ban like now?!

crankyyyyy

2011-07-24T16:21:00.003+08:00

stop doing this to me. hate being alone. like seriously. i wonder why i always kena this kind of things, especially when ive already been through it for the whole 6 years of my primary school life. being a miserable little girl and now that im an adult, im gonna go through this shit again. how long does this have to last? irritating piece of shit. hate being alone!! rather die than being alone. kill me la.

2011-04-11T15:55:00.002+08:00

back from samui trip! it's really a good experience but really a pity that we were there for only 4 days! not enough!! shall go back once again! a lot of things had happened during this period of time. hope that everyone can remain strong and continue to overcome all sorts of obstacles that are coming in future! as for me, im starting work in may, kinda nervous and excited about it! haha but first of all, really need to lookout for working clothes already! was leading a really hectic lifestyle for the past month! going overseas again and again. it's kinda tiring! yet again, every trip was a fruitful one and im really glad i went for them(: next up, bangkok! and that will mark my last oversea trip before i start work!

2011-02-14T21:49:00.002+08:00

busy week! busy with assignments, exams, and erm playing hahahh.
surf and hunt is so poorly organised. i was quite looking forward to it but totally, chui ttm! not to say, i was damn hungry and i turned angry (as always but got improvement ok). had kim gary for dinner aww i love kim gary! it's always niceeeeeeeee

chiong-ed women's health assignment overnight, within 8 hours. with only 2 hours of sleep. internet cock up and i was glad that ball offered me her place! and lin who kindly send me all her articles! aww so blessed!

spent my valentines at home, sleeping.

and. bitching hahaha ciaos`

2011-01-18T20:09:00.004+08:00

sometimes i wonder just what is wrong with this bunch of people. and i thought to myself that probably, the foundations built arent strong enough, or maybe, they just. do. not. want. to. bother.

im so sick of it. i dun even know why im reacting in this way. maybe i care too much, care too much when the rest cant be bothered. that's why i feel so indignant? i feel so taken for granted? i feel so. sad for myself.

so what if this is the longest time we've known each other, so what if we tell each other that we'll always be by each other's side when things happen. so what if we always says sisters forever. so what if we always tell one another that anything just call me. we all know that all these are just superficial. cheap talks. say for the sake of saying. for the sake of making it sounds damn good? sounds like we're damn close like nobody's business. sounds like we're the best frens on earth. when in fact, all these are just fake nothings that we have to say to each other, no choice.

i feel that we are all trapped in the past, when we were still good. that now, watever that is being mentioned in birthday cards are all predictable things. i dun even know who are we now. like who exactly are we. what exactly is our relationship now. im jus to sick and tired of trying to pull everyone together. everytime when we meet up, i just feel scare. it's so absurd, that im scare of our outings when in a year, we only met up 5 times cos we only bother to meet up for birthday celebrations. and why i feel scare? because everyone is secretly fed up/unhappy with everyone. and i always feel that i have the responsibility to act as a clown so as to liven up the atmosphere, which everyone suan me as being crazy. i dun even have to do that in fact, but why am i doing all these? jus to make sure the celebration wun be silent and that the outing stays happy right from the start till the end. but why should i even make this effort when everyone just DO NOT make an effort to know each other even more, concern each other more, and perhaps, empathise with each other when smth happens?

whenever an sms is being received, it's not about asking you how's your day etc. it's always smth that gotta do with asking for help, or ranting to you about unhappy stuffs that happened in their life. and once everything is settled, ppl forget your existence. how would u feel? feel that you're being used? feel that you're just a sparetyre? feel that you have no value to them unless they have no one to turn to and den suddenly thought of you?

and everytime, i make an effort to initiate, all i get are flat rejections. you all only know how to reject. but expects me to think of alternatives for you when you are the troublesome ones. and when i thought of an alternative, all i get are rejections again. rejections with no suggestions. when asked to compromise, non are willing to. that i have to be the one compromising all the time, accommodating everyone all the time, giving in to everyone all the time. stop being such selfish bitches please. im damn sick and tired of it. and yes, be angry all you want, because these are really wat i feel right from the bottom of my heart. i dun want to try anymore. let's just get separated like you all wish to. i dun wan to always be the one feeling anxious over this stupid clique when nobody gives a damn.

2011-01-13T00:14:00.003+08:00

YAY! finally bought heels for myself!!

H-A-P-P-Y!!

thanks to boyfriend who keep assuring that my gigantic legs arent that ugly although i still secretly feels that my legs are the mirror image of elephant legs sigh. ANYWAY YAY HEELS!! somemore it's 3-inch high hahahahahahahaah

2011-01-11T18:14:00.001+08:00

decision making that makes you pangseh your friends is not good at all. especially when they are being pangseh-ed jus to help you out :(

2011-01-04T18:42:00.002+08:00

for a moment, my heart jus sank. oh wells.
now i even hope for singapore to be even smaller.

2011-01-04T17:27:00.004+08:00

i wished i have smaller feet so that i can wear all sorts of shoes, slippers, boots, heels and even try them off the shelves in shops. this is like one of the heels i saw when i went nex today, not the same but similar. and sadly, cant squeeze in :(

but, i really want to have nice looking heels!! lots and lots of them!! it's pretty irritating when you have a certain outfit but u dun have a decent looking footwear to go with it. not to say that all my current footwears are indecent looking, but at least smth that can go well and be compatible with my particular dress etc rite. sighh the agony of big foot ladies. bahh

2011-01-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

happy new year!! it's 2011! wheeeee~

happy birthday ammerson! you are 1 year old now! he's so cute i cant stand it (:

anw, a new year, a new beginning! i should really have a resolution (although all resolutions are just for the sake of saying), but nonetheless, i shall have one! haha and my resolution for the year of 2011 is......

TO CHANGE AWAY ALL MY BAD HABITS!!!

muhahahhaa although there's only one resolution, there's a lot of work to be done k! so many millions of bad habits tsktsktsk. doubt i can even accomplish that but NO I SHALL BELIEVE! =D

2010-12-31T00:39:00.002+08:00

been really tired today. my alarm rang for one hour plus but i didnt even hear a single bit of it. and when i finally heard it, it's alr 915am. super late for yep meeting!! oops, and still feeling tired for the entire day. i guess age is really catching up on me, i dun feel as energetic as before. started stoning at around 12midnight during ktv session and we all didnt last all the way till 3 am. left early instead though. how can this even happen, singing have always been my favourite, so how can i feel tired?! old already..

met up with jc clique! like finally! thanks to zhiyi! had a really good catch up session, although most of the time we're on indecent topics, but still, fun!! shenghui is really damn funny, making me laugh till stomach pain (: gayclub next!

if only i can be nonchalent towards everything, life would be so much more simpler right?

2010-12-29T12:24:00.002+08:00

2010 is coming to an end. it's been a roller coaster ride this year. full of ups and downs. thankful that ive overcomed all odds and evolved into a stronger person.

sometimes i wonder, what am i chasing for? busy with? am i neglecting some of the people around me? am i too caught up with school, with new people, that those who stick by me since sec sch have slowly drift away? or in fact, things have already happened for way too long that no resuscitation could be done anymore?

i really have bad time management. perhaps, schedule management. is it really like wat they say " too many things, but too little time " , or is it just your choice to make time out for whatever that is deem as important to you?

too many times, too many reflections, but, nothing done. bravo anna teo.

2010-11-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

4 weeks down. one more week to go (or probably i should be more specific, 3 and a half more days to go!). ive never had such a stressful placement before, like seriously, this is the worst placement i ever had. the only placement that made me have nightmares at night, emotional breakdown, lose appetite and fear for each working day. thinking back, i really couldnt believe that ive survived that period, especially the first 3 weeks, where im on the verge of failing my placement and everyone's so worried for me. am glad that ive picked myself up on week 4 and things are so much better now! (although i think i still lack a lot of things and have a lot to improve on)

in fact, another thing to feel happy about is that this is the last placement! i cant wait to go back to school but that will mean there's gonna be more projects and assignments to do. but attachment is driving me crazyyyyyyy. and the fact that i have to be on high alert everyday really makes me feel very tired. been sleeping on the bus on the way to work and on the way back home, till now my neck feels so strained.

just hope nothing goes wrong during the next 3 and a half days. pray for me ppl! =D

2010-08-16T22:13:00.005+08:00

after several observation and experiences.

ive finally come to a conclusion that.

i hate going out as a group with you.
cos it seems that it doesnt make a difference to you, with or without my existence.

is it a chore to pay attention to me when im talking to you?
or is it that other ppl are so much more interesting than i do, that you couldnt help yourself but to listen to them instead?

im not an attention seeker. i just hope for somebody to listen to me when im trying to talk. i dun hope for absolute 100% attention on me solely, but jus the basic form of respect and attention that is needed when im talking. is it that difficult to make that happen?

if you think that being out in a group can give u a reason for getting away from me, den i'll make sure i make myself scarce during outings, or keep a distance from you, lest i'll get hurt again from you unknowingly, or rather, knowingly but in your subconscious mind.

2010-08-15T00:42:00.003+08:00

dun you feel that uni orientation camps and stuff are like match-making sessions? they pair up a 'couple' and get them to do things that couple does. oh wells. somehow i feel glad that bf's out of the uni track hahahahha bleah!

but seriously speaking. the camps are fun in a way luh i must admit. but the idea of the couple thingy doesnt sound right to me. afterall, you go into uni for studying and not to find ur life long partner rite? so why indirectly match make ppl? hmm dun understand why. too little ppl getting married in singapore isit lol

ok im jus being anal luh. haha cos imagine you're attached and your the other half is going for this sort of camps, oh man. you sure you can tahan meh! haha anw i was jus stalking ppl on facebook and saw quite a number of photos which shows things lidat. makes me feel uneasy although it has got nth to do with me but still. it's jus weird lor! no meh! tsktsk

OK i shld stop my leh la lor meh alr. it's super singlish like mad. and. i need to shop. seriously.

2010-08-07T00:14:00.004+08:00

im sucha lazy person. lazy to make my blog look more attractive by uploading more photos hahaha. im so sorry. my blog is full of words since like months ago. heh

anw thanks everyone for celebrating my birthday!! really felt blessed and loved by every single one of you! although it's as simple as any other birthday, i appreciate the effort! =D happy 21st to myself! hahaha

clinicals are coming to an end soon. next week's gonna be our last week for clinical 3A. time flies eh. to think we were still grumbling and whining about the start of attachment. but good job everyone! we're surviving well! and really looking forward to next friday's class outing! it's like considered the first time that our class is having an outing ok! really do hope that majority will turn up. in fact, we've sent out the notice since last week so no reason to reject unless unforeseen circumstances (:

just some random thought process :

when a person is in coma/unresponsive to any form of stimulus, what exactly is that person doing/seeing? is she wandering ard in the dark, hoping to find a way out? or is she just like living in her own dream, thinking that she's in the acual world? or perhaps, she is consciously there, knowing that she's lying on the hospital bed, just that she cant open her eyes/utter some words? if it's the last possbility, isnt she suffering in actual fact? wanting to talk, wanting to see, wanting to move ard, but jus couldnt do it. it's the worse form of living isnt it?

anw, after being in icu placement, there's a lot of reflection done within myself. and perhaps im getting more interested in cp now. although i still think ms is my type of tea, but cp is not too bad afterall! able to see patients start walking ard in the ward, is smth that is to be happy about. able to see a patient cough out phlegm finally after 3 weeks of inability to cough, does really give you a great sense of satisfaction (:

think ive learnt a lot in this clinical journey.

alright shall stop here. once again, thanks everyone for everything!!

- boyfriend (:
- damai clique (:
- jc clique (:
- hubbers (:
- nyp peeps (:
- and of course other frens like yz, raven, syahida etc (:

2010-07-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

that's why i always like to keep all of my stuffs inside my room eg. my shampoo, food etc. and i really really feel much safer when everything is inside my room (yes i know my room is like some karung guni storage place) but it has been lidat since i was like erm 6years old? so it doesnt really matter to me if my room is kept clean or remained messy heh

like for example, my super expensive-like-siao shampoo which i bought it when i felt richer after working in starhub had been used by my brother as his cleaning feet soap. and i didnt know it until one fine day, he suddenly asked me: "wat kind of soap is that? got the cooling effect leh! very nice!" and i swear i saw his face brighten up while drying up his feet. i almost fainted on the spot i tell you!! and from then on, i knew that the people in my house dun care which item belongs to who, they jus use it as and when they like it.

and now, the chocolate biscuit which boyfriend bought for me from hokkaido has mysteriously vanished in the thin air. ok he told me that was meant for my whole family, but i jus cant help offering them only when im ard and kept them after ive distributed some. so a few days back, my dad was feeling hungry so i took it out and offer him. apparently i forgot to keep them back to my safe little room, then now it's gone. like seriously serious?! i only ate 3 to 4 of them only! (*#&*^$)(^*()**~&!#*&&

things like this happen too often. my favourite things has always gone missing or eaten up, or used up once it's out of my sight. so much so that i will jus dump everything in my room to make sure that only me, myself and i can take it.

dont you feel the agony inside me? sighh i think one day i will end up becoming some selfish bitch if this goes on. oh wells.

and thanks dear for today! enjoyed myself thoroughly (:

2010-07-07T20:42:00.003+08:00

casualties everywhere.

oh wells. and my status is still unknown. i wonder why does it has to be hanging in the air. why cant everything be standardised? is it really that fun to withhold the results? im jus so ARGH about the whole thing. so much so that i want to scream across the whole j corridor.

although im not physically there today, i can totally feel how tensed up and emo the atmosphere there would be. it's just too much to handle out of the sudden. i dunno if it's because of the hay-wire system that they have over there, or is it cos of our incompetence. but i jus think that the practise is jus not enough. and i know that everybody has been trying their best to give their best shot, that i really feel sad about those who didnt make it :(

2010-06-25T22:53:00.002+08:00

my two weeks of study break is officially ending in 2 days time. time flies!! these two weeks, totally no life. projects, research, projects, research, assignments, research, practise ms, practise ms and practise ms. OMGoodness this is madness.

and jy is so tempting me to watch worldcup. tonight's match sounds so interesting through her description over sms!! arghhh i wanna watch worldcup!! somebody lend me their place leh! i promise i wun scream for joy when somebody scores a goal =DDD

boyfriend's going rainbow waterfall in malaysia for 3 days! sounds quite an interesting place. waiting for nice photos to be uploaded! and my melbourne trip is confirmed! finally some 'holiday' is coming in during this year. i cant imagine staying here and keep doing research for like 1 whole year?!

been having late nights during this study break that now im having sore throat. hope i wun fall sick cos clinicals are coming up and also exams plus presentations are starting. in fact, i hope clinicals start soon cos that would mean that all of the presentations will be down and what's left is only our theory exam and assignments, and of course, the never-ending fyp (yes i know, fyp is driving all of us crazy, hang on there ppl!)

ok i feel so bad cos i rejected all the dinners/meetups/outings this week. and that's another reason why i feel so no life. how now brown cow :(

2010-06-16T08:58:00.002+08:00

im suposed to be having my 2 weeks break. but oh wells. it's STUDY break afterall. cant wait for a real holiday from school!! i feel like im going into shortness of breath soon. so many things piling up and i jus cant seem to finish it. hmm especially ms prac exam. goodness. it's. so. scary.

and i haven gotten a chance to go back to school and practise anything. partly it's cos of the good weather nowadays. kept raining in the morning that i dun wanna wake up at all! and it's so troublesome to get out of the house with a rainy weather. so at the end of the day, i ended up camping at home and complete my other assignments. okays, not so completed yet.

oh and i finally applied for GST offset!! money money roll in~

sponsrship for cgh has been successful as well! but that means that im all on my own now. all my expenses will be out from my own pocket! *gasps! and i guess the only good news is that i come to know about gmarket. can do some retail therapy at sucha cheap price! at least i wun burn a big hole in my pocket =D

alright, have to get prepared for school now. yes during my study break, ive to go back to school. how sad :(

2010-05-31T20:17:00.002+08:00

keep having weird dreams. and it's making me feel so uneasy, for fear that those dreams will just come true one day. it's not helping when i already felt something way before these dreams started. sometimes, you have dejavu and mostly it came from ur dreams isnt it? how i wish these dreams wun ever happen in real life, even the thought of it makes me lose every concentration that i have when doing things. this is so bad.

sometimes, i kinda hate myself for having nonsensical thoughts running through my mind. cant smth more practical run in my brain from this minute onwards? and den the images formed in my brain looks so real! jus like how the dreams at night feel so real as well. i dun wanna wake up at all. i want to continue the dream and see wat's happening next and wat will be the conclusion. but sigh, ive school and gotta wake up no matter wat.

will the dreams continue again tonight? :((

2010-05-16T18:50:00.002+08:00

finally it's raining!! i felt roasted for the past few days. or probably weeks. suddenly miss the weather over at hongkong. it's cold but still much better than the humidity over here. anw, hope this rain will wash away all the suayness that's with me! you wouldnt want to know what happened for this week. it's horrendous.

i cant wait for graduation. and hope history will repeat itself when i leave this school, for those morons sitting high up in the office, shaking legs and happily copying down student's names. hur. be glad that i will still recognise you two even if both of u turned into ashes.

well, literature review is hell. seriously. ive finally managed to squeeze out one paragraph out of the many that im supposed to type. and pardon me for slacking here and there. it's just too brain draining and boring, although i think i will find some sense of satisfaction when i finally completed it. wednesday is the deadline for sending it to my group mates. ahhhhh 3 more days?!

i need like some form of entertainment. some form of group outing. cycling session. movies, ktv to spice up my life! and oh. nafa's coming up. time to train up!! :((

2010-04-13T19:11:00.002+08:00

is it time to let go after so long of persistence? thinking that time will make everything much better, but wat ive seen is more of the opposite. why try so hard when the other party shows no sense of gratitude, or rather, when ppl start to take things for granted. i used to be that kind which im so glad that now, ive changed for the better. probably, the time is up. be contented with what i have eh.

maybe it's disappointment. ha how funny, this feeling's always there since months ago. now that it has re-surfaced again, does it show a sign? that it's time to give up on hope. i jus cant believe that no one bother to talk, bother to care, bother to take note of these things around them. or probably everyone's too caught up with their own things, too caught up with the exciting life and people ard them that maybe this phrase is true after all : 旧的不去，新的不来

hur lose hope? why not(:

2010-04-10T18:03:00.002+08:00

IM BACK FROM HONGKONG!!

hongkong, shen zhen, macau. nice places actually. jus that the trip is a bit off due to unforeseen circumstances and the ppl over there. oh and not to forget, the service provided.

in any case, i tried to enjoy the whole trip! finally smth different from singapore. i realised hk doesnt have a lot of fast food restaurants ard. and that's one good thing i like about hk. they have a lot of restaurants, noodles stalls, xiao chi dian etc. which is smth that attracted me the most. lazy to upload photos. if want to see can go fb see k! but wun be updating anytime soon also cos im plain lazy and not really in the mood.

in any case, i hope to go there once more free and easy though. no more with tours thankyou. my trip will be much happier(:

going malaysia next month!!

2010-04-01T19:49:00.004+08:00

the annoying orange(:

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

credits to karen(:

2010-03-28T21:19:00.002+08:00

i need to learn swimming. need a cert. so it's safer if im going for degree conversion. but. getting into the water is alright. it's the part whereby i cant touch the ground while in the water that makes everything so scary. ever since that drowning incident at sentosa, it became a phobia for me. how am i gonna learn swimming with this now? seriously. anw, i really need a new swimsuit den. haven been swimming for ages. i think im getting fatter. cant squeeze into my swimsuit alr tsk

in any case, i hope i can conquer that fear of mine. whoever has the ability to pull me out of that dark side, pls do so thankyou(:

i was only offline for 4 hours and suddenly when i log onto msn, i had a lot of spammers adding me in msn. wat the hell is wrong with msn seriously? it's getting on my nerves. den i have to block + delete one by one. so irritating.

ive finally started watching xin guang da dao season 3!! hahahahahhaa lag i know!

2010-03-27T00:20:00.004+08:00

ATTACHMENT'S OVER!!

and im glad that ive discharged 3 patients! woah cant believe it. it certainly feels good to see your patients getting better week by week and till then, they are ready to stop physio treatment and get discharged. to think i wouldnt discharge a single patient for this attachment but miracles do happen! my first patient discharged was on wed. and thurs is my second and today i discharged my third one. nice. really nice(:

happy to have finished this placement but i guess cgh is really too nice a place that i cant bear to leave. definitely will miss the people there. they are so nice! especially my ces, nicest ce on earth. so ppl who's going cgh for 3A, jus to say, u guys are damn lucky to have them for ces. in any case, yf and i were their pioneer batch. honoured? haha i guess they felt more honoured than us! lol anw, they are jus freaking nice. really. always digging food out and let us eat, helping us and protecting us. clearing obstacles for us, and willing to do anything that will benefit us. where to find such ces u tell me!

now that attachment is over, it's time to catch up on my sleep. haven been sleeping much due to preparation of inservice. my pimples and dark circles are getting worse. and i realised smth. whenever im on attachment, i will start to have rashes here and there. probably hospitals are really not that clean. but it's weird cos the rashes appear at weird places like my tummy etc. tsk

alright. now it's also time to catch up with my fellow friends. 3 weeks of holidays. not enough to use lor! and and. i cant wait to go hk. next friday. next friday. next friday(:

2010-03-14T17:15:00.004+08:00

i need some inspiration for my inservice presentation. shoulder's a killer but i really do want to be confident on handling shoulder cases. 2 more weeks to go! cant wait for attachment to end though. have a lot of plans for my upcoming holidays. play hard so as to welcome year 3 with a happier note =D

one of my goldfish died. horrible death i should say. because despite it's unknown death cause, half of it's head was gone due to it's good buddy+playmate in the same tank. perhaps being too hungry or that the playmate was too blind to see that it's the same species, it literally ate my poor goldfish's head. damn gross.

so possible hypotheses that i can gather through this objective assessment on why my goldfish died are as followed:
(must rmb to prioritise your hypotheses ok)

1. hunger to death
2. murdered by it's buddy
3. died of old age
4. depression

clinical reasoning as to why i came up with these 4 hypotheses are as followed:

1. since the buddy ate half of it's head, i reckon they must be too hungry while swimming in the fish tank, so high chance it died due to hunger
2. only one particular fish kept eating it's head, so why rule out murder? (:
3. as long as it's a living thing, it will get old one day and jus die in peace. somemore the one which died is a bigger fish(we bought 4 small and 4 big goldfishes), so it might be cos of that.
4. look at my pathetic fish tank. no source of entertainment, no water plants, no bridges for them to play hide and seek, no matter wat they do, it will be exposed to the public. depression? highly likely.

oh i forgot to mention, numerous fishes jumped to it's death since i was younger. either they jump out of the water and landed on my house floor or it jumped and somehow landed on wires, hanged to death. so that particular location of my fish tank.. hmmmm.. u know (:

ive yet to find out the cause of the death. in any case, this post is plain retarded. sorry to have taken up ur time though! haha (:

2010-03-07T19:37:00.003+08:00

2 weeks of attachment down! 3 more to go so jiayou everyone!

seems like bff is having fun over at beijing. so envious of her!! cant wait for my hk trip then! 买东西吃东西买东西吃东西!

dinner with starhubpeeps was great! though we haven been meeting up since like eons ago, but i dun feel any awkwardness during the whole session. that's awesome isn't it! especially that sop. super damn long never see her alr! and because of her, i started talking nonsense which made everyone laughed at me. so embarrasing!!! (auntie lucy HAHA) and yes our next date on april(:

yesterday was a rather emotional day. the curve jus shoots up and down unknowingly. but glad everything's alright now. at least i thought so(: can so feel how much we had for each other. sorry to have thrown my tantrum around dear. it's jus hormonal imbalance cos my period is coming hahahahhaha

time flies when u're having fun. so fast and the weekends are over now. next wed celebration for abu's 21st! everyone's turning 21 alrr so old! to think when i was younger, i hope to grow up fast and be an adult. but now that ive grown up, it's really true that being a kid is still the best. lesser responsibilties, lesser troubles, lesser heart wrenching memories. well not to say that i didnt have any happy memories, in fact i have far too many that i really thank god for letting me meet these bunch of frens in my life. frens that are true to each other and always being such a sweetheart(: i guess the most sweetest fren award should go to my sec sch bestie karen! so much things that she've done for me. made me feel that im quite a lousy fren to her hahahaha

ok im jus slacking cos i really cant find any motivation to start studying and revising. and i need to think of a topic for my inservice!! someone help me think of smth interesting and easy to do leh! if u know me well enough, im quite a lazy person oops

-no words can describe this connection that we had for each other. so strong yet it seems to be so fragile.

2010-02-27T15:03:00.003+08:00

why are ppl so obsessed with iphone? seriously. isnt phone to be used as a communicative device? but why are ppl adding in more and more stuff into this rectangular shaped thing, otherwise known as a phone?

especially when i see ppl ard me, busy watching videos thru their iphone and not talking to each other when they are all sitting at the same table. den wat's the point of meeting up for lunch or dinner? someone mentioned: blame the user not the phone. but if not for the phone, will the user behave in this manner? there's always a reason as to why ppl behave or react in a certain manner. if there's no fire, there wun be smoke.

people are willing to spend money on this thing. but exactly how much have they been using in this phone for it to worth the amt that they spent? how much of the applications that they claimed that they wanted to use have they actually really use it? jus so how different is it as compared to a normal phone except that the applications available is more than the number of cells in our body? and wat's the point of playing games in it, watching videos, checking email, browsing facebook etc when the thing that u are holding is called as a PHONE. or perhaps some anal ppl will rebutt: that's why it's called an I-PHONE. oh wells. wat an intelligent reply (:

more irritating people having iphone will start updating their status every 5 seconds in facebook, for fear that the world arent aware of wat they are doing at this very moment or where their location is. and that is when poor souls like me will have new updates at my home page every now and then. and the whole news feed area is all about they themselves and them.

if everywhere u go, all u see is ppl holding onto iphone, den wat's the special thing about it now? it's so special tat everyone has one? but to me, it has lost it's uniqueness, not in the way of having billions of applications, but in a way that it's so common in the streets now. if i were to gather 10 people and mix their phones up, i bet 9 of them wun be able to identify which phone belongs to them.

so as u can see, i really dislike it so much that whoever has iphone, i will feel like smashing their iphone and rolling my eyes at them. unless someone can convince me about how good it is, perhaps i will consider taking off the rolling eyes part(:

2010-02-25T20:33:00.002+08:00

life's been great at cgh! it's really a very good learning ground for students(: some of the signs and symptoms that u will see if im having attachment:

super dark eye rings
pimples outbreak
zombie walk
stoning 99% of the time
super damn hungry at every hour
usage of medical terms every now and then

yup totally lack of sleep for the past few days! but im quite happy with outpatient. to think i always tot im a very inpatient person, im so surprised that i prefer outpatient so much than inpatient now! and everyday, as i learn more things in clinicals, gathering more knowledge through this attachment, i feel as if ive finally found wat i really want from this course. and it's something that im interested in. for the first time in my life, i even told my ce that outpatient is fun even though i couldnt answer their questions 90% of the time=D

guess i will enjoy myself very much in this attachment. somemore so near my house haha :P

bff went beijing le! so long still haven hear anything from her. guess she haven really settle down yet bah. and perhaps her internet isnt quite up yet. i miss bff!! need to skype or msn with her soon!!

time flies(:

2010-02-19T15:51:00.005+08:00

tell me this is not wat i think it is. everything seem to have slowly come to a stop. and i have this premonition that it's gonna get worse during clinicals. i. jus. need. to. stop. thinking.

hope my dear karen is doing fine(:

and thanks bff for helping me in my blogskin. i guess in this world, she's the only one who can do this for me repeatedly without any complains(:

im so procrastinating on my revision for clinicals. this is a bad sign. can somebody show me some motivation? i cant do it on my own. should have jus dragged my feet all the way to jieying's house and practise or smth. i cant help but keep staring into space and think of nonsense.

hello annateo. buck up.

2010-02-08T15:43:00.003+08:00

one day of resting at home to prepare myself for the rest of the hectic week. it's really more of family bonding i must say. but yet, it's not quite. anyway im glad that some good stuff happened and that im leading a happier life now. really do hope that there's changes made and not jus for a short period of time.

in fact, i did smth that i hope will benefit in time to come. and i really do hope so. because the day to reveal the secret is approaching. and as many know, time really flies. so i do hope that during cny, she will be invited and that she really turn out as a nice girl. and that's the most i can do to help you, and sorry to say, to help myself as well. im not sure if u call this as having an ulterior motive, because somehow in the middle of persuasion, this thought came into my mind and made me persevere with my stand. but i swear that when i helped to speak up for you, i didnt have any hidden agenda. and that's true. it only occur to me when im doing my reasoning and stuff den somehow, it's linked to my current situation. in any case, i hope she's really the right one for you, and not some bimbo bitch ok. if not, ur future is destroyed and mine probably too.

i want to go shopping, sing song, play mahjong! need to really enjoy this two weeks b4 attachment starts. hello my beloved hcl people! cant wait to meet u all on wed/thurs! =D

2010-02-03T11:23:00.003+08:00

i have a sexy voice now (:

in fact, my pimples etc are recovering and i cant wait for my skin to be pimple free. BUT suddenly i jus fell sick. like hello?! argh. now my complexion is damn badddd. kill me please. cny is coming. i rather not take ang baos than my face in such a state! i need like mangoes, almonds, avocado watever for a nice skinnnnn.

and im still coughing awayyyy, my nose is still supplying free water 24/7. throat is drilling like the lift upgrading outside my house. hmm MUST BE THE DUST AND EVERYTHING OUTSIDE causing my sudden illness. argh angryyyy ah!

2010-01-29T18:06:00.003+08:00

i realised smth new about bus driver's seat. dunno if it's only for certain bus but i think it's pretty cool! as usual, im like the last person to board the bus cos i dun really know how to shove ppl away and be the first to board the bus. so eventually, i stood at the postero-lateral side of the driver and i realised smth damnnnn amazing.

whenever the bus driver drive past a hump or some uneven surfaces, the driver's seat will bounce accordingly and act as a cushion for the driver's butt! i mean, u dun have passenger seats to have this bouncing effect rite! normally it's just the bus/car itself to have this bouncing thingy after a hump but this new thing has both! seriously. i was quite amazed cos the seat jus keep bouncing non stop. anyway it's going on expressway so the driver kind of increase the speed a lil and of course there will be uneven surfaces on the road rite, so the bus bounce, and the driver seat bounce too! SO CUTEEEEEE OMG

it's like, providing a cushioning effect on the driver's butt jus like how our meniscus helps to provide cushioning for our knee. haha this is so cute!

at first, i thought im jus hallucinating because it's early in the morning and i really feel quite tired. but i jus keep seeing this bouncing thingy at my peripheral vision field. and so, i jus turn my head and focus at the seat which apparently i almost burst out laughing cos it's really very funny! the driver practically jus bounce non stop.*bo-oink bo-oink*

and it actually tempted me a lot to want to sit on that driver seat. it seems like a mini cheap thrill thingy for me, smth like a bouncy roller coaster. isnt that cool! at that point of time, i really wanted to pull the driver away and sit on it! it seems so fun can! and it really looks very comfortable to ur butt. i mean it helps to absorb any force exerting on ur butt wat. maybe they should make the same seats for passengers then i get to sit on this cool seat too! dont govt encourage ppl to take public transport? then respond to my request quick! if not im gonna buy a car when i grow up and increase the traffic congestion in singapore muhahaha

ok i hope this is really smth new. cos i sounded like the noobest noob on earth now. please dun tell me that this has been going on for quite some time kk! dun wanna malu myself too hahahahaha omg i cant stand it. it's really super cute.

alright time to study. two papers down! two more to go! jiayou everyoneeee! erh ok wait. let me catch my 7pm show first before i start studying. anyone watch cruel temptation on channel u 7pm?! IT'S SO NICE omg ok. i shld really go. bye!

2010-01-23T18:01:00.005+08:00

i really hate it when im being forced to do things that i abhor. wat's wrong with ur hands and legs? are they so osteoporotic at the age of 24 that u cant bear to move an inch out of ur chair, for fear that the bones will start to get fractured on its own? or is it that you've gotten RDS that your skin is so hyper sensitive and that's why u didnt wan to move? i hate you ok. and im serious. ive never hated someone so badly before. i cant wait for your ord cos that's when u will move out and i wun be seeing ur damnit face for the rest of my life.

sometimes i wonder, wat if my parents decided to stop at one? will they be leading an even better life now, or will their life be worse? sometimes i wonder, if they didnt have my sis and i, will they be slogging their guts out for survival, will they be relying on each other to continue living, will they be so heartbroken that they see no glimspe of hope in life?

all sorts of possibilities, and im glad that at least they still have two daughters with them. i dun dare to say that we are the best daughters, but at least, i believe that we provided comfort to them. at least they know that when they get older, they can rely on us. i cant imagine their life without us, they dun even know they will be abandoned by their oh-so-filial-son. when they work so hard jus to provide the best for him, wat do they get in return? scoldings, unhappiness, troubles and more troubles. he dun even have a tinge of guilt, he dun even understand them at all. he took everything for granted. he thought that they owes him and even so, i guessed they have already repaid their debts. since birth till now, they have given him everything that a child would love to have, wat else do u want?

life is so unfair. i dun understand why. i jus want to scream. scream my lungs out. scream like nobody's business. but who knows, my parents might be the one who need this scream more than anyone else. and they have been bearing this so such a long time. nothing can describe how im feeling. how would u feel if u have a brother like this?

2010-01-20T00:34:00.003+08:00

jus had a very intensive debate with our dear ball ball. haha ok i know i sounded damn confusing cos im indeed confused! but im glad everything's cleared up now! *phew if not im so not gonna be able to sleep tonight.

couldnt study at home! it's so noisy cos of all the lift upgrading works etc. the only time i had peace was during lunch, and for my lifetime i swear that that was the best one hour ive ever had! silence is goldennnnn (: glad that im going to ball's house tmr for studying session! it's so conducive there luh. although at times i really feel like sleeping cos it's too comfy heh. sometimes when im with ball, i will kind of think of juli. cos they are just. so. similar. hmm alright. maybe cos both of them has freckles all over hahahahhahaha

and yay! karen is switching jobs alr! no more torturous like hell working hours for her(: and guess wat. her new workplace is at paya lebar! hello isnt that near my house! great for some lunch meetup and stuff. speaking of that, i haven visit abu yet. haven seen her so sucha long time! i wan to play with her dog seriously, it looks so cute over at facebook!

feel like shopping! ball and jieying's been shopping and im really tempted to shop as well since there's sales (info provided by jy haha) so tell me how how how. argh ok i shall go shopping on friday! bo chapppppp and jy's post today is so funny and lame but nice one (:

clinical postings out! im in cgh this time round. and chenxingxing is at sgh onco! we practically jus switched place! and i hope this time round, onco is much better! hoped that the feedbacks ive given will benefit chenxingxing and her partner. im kinda excited about my placement. maybe cos ive nv been to any outpatient before. first time of course excited luh! partly im kinda scared also. but excitedness outweighs my fear for it so conclusion : I CANT WAIT FOR CLINICALS TO START! =D

hmm on a sidenote, i really miss him a lot these few days. hello boyfriend! cant wait to see u on thurs!

2010-01-18T18:48:00.003+08:00

due to demands of many (ok in fact only one, who is my bff haha) , i shall post my first entry in the year 2010! happy new year everyone! i know im a lil lag but well who cares haha. alright maybe i should say happy advance chinese new year and valentines eh!

managed to finish the two assignments! finally! i feel so relieved. now i can concentrate solely on my exams alr. jiayou everyone!

while i was on the way home jus now, i saw this little junior of mine. i dunno her one la haha but she's from maha bodhi so that makes her my little junior(: anyway the design of the pe attire changed alr! and it's so damn nice now! seriously. why the hell i want to come out of my mum's womb so early! if not i would have the luxury of wearing such nice pe attire alr. i kind of miss my primary school, though i totally have no idea what did i do for the whole 6 years except eye-candying ppl (as usual haha). and it's exactly that school that i found my bff! to be exact, we knew each other from tuition actually haha. and i tot she's quite weird cos she kept stepping on the poor ants on the ground. well we ended up being such close frens! so can u like don't go beijing?! bring me if u wanna go leh! haha i want to have a farewell dinner with u before u fly off k(:

had i really nice family outing yesterday. went for ktv and crab dinner! all thanks to my sister cos she's the one who treated the whole family to ktv and dinner(: and then some bmw honk us because he thinks his car is so big that it will hit us. sorry lor, it aint so big :p we were kinda pissed cos he anyhow honk one lor! wonder how did he even pass btt. honk is used to prevent accident k. not to honk so that we notice ur tiny bmw. so while we were still pissed, i swore with my little finger that one day i will be driving ferrari (say only luh) and honk into his tiny bmw. haha and the story goes on, till everyone became happier again. sometimes, it's this kind of small lil stupid things that brighten up ppl's day(:

and i guess i want to change my blogskin. maybe is cos of this blogskin that makes me dun wanna blog haha. alright shall change it after exams. till then, ciaos! =D

2009-12-20T20:24:00.004+08:00

naive when i was younger. and now that ive grown up, i realised that things arent as simple as it seems. ive always have a strong belief in this, and that no matter wat, things will work out in the end. obstacles are just barriers that we need to overcome, they meant to be lesson learnt for us. determination and faith, isnt those the most important things to have right now and even in the future? but it seems so bleak to me. everything that i tot will have a good ending, somehow became unattainable.

tried to give the best, and i know the standard is still at such low to moderate level. im trying, so hard that i would love to compromise if situation allows. the fact shows disadvantages, well so? wat doesnt kill you, makes you stronger. but it doesnt apply so now. why am i sensing this now, when i tot everything is fine?

2009-11-26T21:01:00.003+08:00

first week of attachment down! =D arent you glad this week is a short week?! haha at least im glad it is, cos i seriously need the sleep and life back!

being in oncology is smth new and interesting. although we haven really learnt anything about cancer, it is jus the same as anything else except for the presence of cancer cells. treatment and assessments are all the same! maybe jus a few precautions here and there(:

wat a hectic week. with all the research and proj to do everyday, im surprised that im still coping it well. and zhiyi get well soon k!! cant wait for one week break though it's study break actually, but i wanna go kl and get some fresh air. too suffocating in here.

out of a sudden, i miss all my frens :( sometimes when everybody gets busy in their own life, it's difficult to meetup. and perhaps, to even contact each other. yet again, some things are jus too awkward to even begin with. how to begin when u dun even know whether it has ended? rather, if u are still in there?

2009-10-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

HAHA MJC MATH DEPT ROCKS! =D

2009-09-17T14:54:00.002+08:00

my 400th post! OMG to think i feel like abandoning my blog hahahahah =x

tried to have a fufilling holiday this time round, but it doesnt quite seem so haha. majority i guess is cos of the working hours of my job. made my schedule kind of go hay-wire alr. but for the money, i shall persevere!

anw staying at home the whole day is jus too boring. seriously. maybe cos im not that kind of home-y person. i want to go out. out. out! that's the downside of having a job that starts at night. when everybody is waiting to knock off from work, im waiting to start my work. when im so darn free, everybody is either working or studying. poor me! im starting to ache all over by just sitting in front of the comp and watch my beloved xin guang da dao :(

exercise! i need to mooooovvveeeeeeeee! but i jus cant wake up early in the morning for a jog. too lazy. and i seem to have insomnia at night. shit this is bad. when i need to sleep during exam period, i cant. now that i have plenty of time, i cant get into my dreamland. save me please.

and im so stress cos i haven gotten any appt for my job while others at least got one alr. somebody sell your flat pleaseeee. i will be soooooo grateful to you! sompa! if not i might jus get stress to death. so after this time, no more telemarketing job for me anymore(: i rather go back to starhub, especially it's moving to my house area in oct! but sob! holidays are too short for them to hire me boo

but well, so glad im going malaysia next week. a getaway from boring singapore. i cant wait! haven been able to go back due to my studies. miss all my retarded cousins and my lovely grandma. her cooking skills are superb! nicest on earth! =D

countdown to malaysia : 8days!

2009-09-15T13:18:00.001+08:00

OKAY ENTERTAINMENT TIME! hahaha. this is so exciting. i know im very very slow but first season is so nice! heh jia hope u are getting well alr! anw PK between xiao jing teng and yang zhong wei OMG! can skip the first 5mins though (:

cool rite! but somehow i feel very stress listening to his song hahaha. eyebrows will start to frown on it's own. eww.

yang zhong wei's time! OMGOMG.

haha the host is so damn funny. i like her! heh. and lin you jia's face is so cuteeeee. NICE RITE! muhahaha. off to watch more now! =D

2009-08-22T19:24:00.000+08:00

i think facebook has really good daily horoscope discription. sometimes it really freak the hell outta me.

need a break seriously. perhaps jus find a day after exams, go to somewhere quiet and nice, and jus spend the day with myself. i guess, that would be one of the nicest thing to do on earth.

actually i dun wish to run away, but when you realise that things are happening and you can only stand there helplessly, thinking that miracle will happen, you will start to feel how useless you are. and we all know that miracle hardly happens, so i can jus continue being a helpless soul and watch things get worse by it's own.

*if holding on will only bring more misery, then why not choose to let go?*

2009-08-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

i find it ridiculous when i see ppl taking out a cigarette after a good run. defeats the purpose isnt it?

open up, open up some happiness (:

2009-08-14T15:56:00.000+08:00

sometimes it wouldnt work even if u keep telling ppl that u have self discipline. cos that doesnt happen, it's jus all talk no action. to think i woke up at 10am jus to study and now i haven even complete anything yet. that's the negative effects of having a laptop and playing real hard before the start of exams. the momentum hasnt set in yet, and gosh, all i could think of now is "where should i play during my holidays" =.=

no external stimulus to motivate me to stick my eyes on those disgusting notes. because as far as i know, this house is too empty and quiet for me to hear encouraging words. so that's the reason why i dun really want to study at home but sometimes, ppl jus dun understand. is it cos of too little trust, or jus personal preferences?

thought through it and let it go. isnt that the best way to get things going? it doesnt matter how ppl think, or look at you because wat matters most is how you view yourself. if ppl dun care about ur existence, den why should u care about them. live ur life the way u want to be, that you will still lead a happy life without them interfering you. and in any case, if the love is not the same as before, den wat's the point of keeping it(:

2009-08-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

been really nasty today. and how we make fun of the year 1s. omg i cant imagine why inner devil is back.

intensive mugging soon! for now, it's projects-chionging. keep forgetting to do HIM. HIM HIM HIM. ok this shall serve to remind me. DO HIM BEFORE DEADLINE!

million thanks to all who celebrated my birthday, sms-ed me and all. appreciate it! and yes. no one 1 alr. it's BIG TWO NOW!

ps. sorry kacky! have to postpone cos im sick. still feel guilty! ):

2009-07-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

im so tired! if i could sleep for 3 days 3 nights, i dun mind! haha at least now i wan tues to be over, so at least i can take a breather and relax jus for that few days before hell begins again. anw, i used to like this teacher cos she's really nice teaching us in lecture. but during today's FIRST tutorial with her, im totally pissed and hello, she's so anal. period.

nice western food at amk! cheap oso! thanks lin for the recommendation(: shall bring my beloved frens there once my exams are OVER. which means another one more month to go. SO LONG! i want to havoc when my holidays come! DUN CARE.

the xi nu ai le photos taken with mich and manda is so funny, i cant stand it. and the zi high session with lin during lab practice today was totally kok-ed. i wonder why we suddenly started laughing at every little small things. overly tired if that is, and energy jus dies off after that. but we still managed to finish remembering all the postural drainage positions! half the battle is won(:

regarding some issues, i cant help but to feel bad and guilty. i know that disclosing the facts are cruel but i wouldnt want to continue it anymore. because that isnt fair and it's starting to get a lil weird somewhat. ignorance is bliss. and now i think ive really fully understood it.

2009-07-18T21:27:00.003+08:00

im tired from studying and i want to watch boys over flowers. guess my sis and i had a super duper craze over BOF that we decided to converse in our very own "korean" language. speaking about making fun of this shop owner at far east. tsk its fun though! and at least now i know ppl will believe me if i tell them im a korean HAHA

GU JUN PYO! YO! =D

2009-07-13T22:10:00.004+08:00

finally shitted after 1000hours. happy! but why must it be after i took my height and weight for classmates' project? makes me so heavy. hahahhaa i gain weight le la wat the hell.

anw payday today! OMGOMG i feel so much richer now! heh but it wun last for too long. time to clear my debts boo and and. why they change my ms prac exam date! double boo.

plus, i keep bumping into cockroaches and i dun know why. (okay that's pretty random)

3 days of school at 8am, off from school at 5pm.
6 projects and 8 tests before semestral exams start, who can tahan? :(

2009-07-03T11:19:00.004+08:00

sometimes i really feel like crushing my phone and get a new one. now it's dead out of no reason. i was jus charging it and it died. fine die all u want. im only left with one last month of warranty and that's it. byebye.

2009-07-01T15:32:00.002+08:00

i think i could jus die doing the elearning. it's gonna be 4 hours alr and i haven even finish 8 questions?! ahh shoot me to death please. okay i shall set a goal. finish by 4pm and send it over. if not i shall stuff myself with more chocolate cake heh!

yesterday's birthday celebration was great! although the waiting time is quite frustrating, family outings are jus that fantastic that all frustrations jus dissolved within a second(:

yay transformers later! cant wait! i havent been to a movie for long long time. boys over flowers yesterday made me feel so aww all over. and my mum actually had the same taste as jieying! seeing how my mum go gaga over jihu is jus so funny. nv seen my mama being such a hua chi before. cute! but i still like yijeong muhahahaha

OKAY 15more mins to 4pm. go back to elearning. like wat ive said. kill me please. heh.

2009-06-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

paris and milan is so funny! laugh till stomachache. it's a kind of variety show about singaporean's bad habits and all. though it's stupidly funny but a good laugh is so important for me at this point of time. been rather cranky these few days. epa! i finally cleared all my doubts today during lab. relieved(:

closure of school for a week due to h1n1. something to feel happy about? hmm not quite. though there's more time to study for other papers, but cant book lab next week to practise epa. i guess i have to depend on luck alr. and this kind of closure due to a pandemic somehow will constantly remind me of a particular issue. which is sometimes quite disturbing to me. but i know, things wun happen that easily right. once is enough. i dun want history to repeat itself.

yet again, this one additional week of break can serve as a replace for last week. haha i got back my 2weeks break! plus zhiyi wanted to shop. should be able to find time and shop tog with her heh. i dun understand why ppl dun believe that i have phobia for mj. is it really that incredible? haha anw it's getting better alr. i think. we can try again but no more 7hours please thankyou(:

theme park at sentosa is opening next year! omg i cant wait! love theme parks to the max!

2009-06-23T10:25:00.002+08:00

sometimes even when working, fate does play a part. even though it's so near my house, i couldnt stand working one more second there. it will so totally kill me. seriously. so glad to have tendered the resignation letter on friday. as i can see, the supervisor couldnt bear to watch me leave, thus the long conver each time we met haha. hope all goes well for zhiyi(:

this can be considered the second worst job ive ever gotten. even my virgin job at the age of 14 seems so much nicer and fun. how i miss working with my frens tog! of course, with nice ppl there to guide you and GOOD FOOD. imagine eating alone with expensive low standard food for one whole week! oh gosh, cant imagine how i survive that.

suddenly miss banquet times! though the ppl there were quite anal(and i think they still are haha) but they are nice peeps. and everytime you get to meet new ppl, you see new things, you get new partners, you get to secretly eat nice food and take turns to 'watch water', you get to bio handsome guys and chiobu, den when our captain became so anal that he purposely separate karen and i, we will start comunicating with each other using sign language :p , most imptly, you get instant cash! hahaha of course late night supper with karen and home tog. life's nv been better(:

starhub! the second nicest job of mine! though some customers are mean and unreasonable but i can so feel their frustration of not being able to surf for hours and still have to wait for callback. tsk poor thing hor. hmm but too bad haha =x satisfaction when u cleared cust's doubts and when you helped to solve their problem, you will start thinking that you are borned a genius. haha for that moment only larh(: camwhoring, bo chap attitude during cny, kop-ing biscuits from pantry, slack after hitting target, endless ot to earn more money, nice jvc fruit juice and mee goreng too! if there are weekend hivr needed, i might consider going back eh =D

time to study! exams coming soon alr. been a guai kia staying at home for consecutive dunno how many days hahaha. ghost of gf past tmr! been long since we went for a movie tog. cant wait(:

hilarious. laugh till stomach pain and tears in my eyes when i watched it the first time. thanks to dear super mario(:

2009-06-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

QUITTED THE JOB WOOTS! =D

2009-06-08T22:55:00.003+08:00

just what the hell is wrong with her? cant you jus gimme some time to settle my stuffs first and give u a more detailed reply in like, a couple of mins? it's not as if i dun wanna discuss rite, it's jus that im doing things halfway and u come asking me questions. din even ask in detail oso. as if i know wat u are asking. den there u are, throwing tantrums and everything. fuck.

2009-06-05T23:02:00.003+08:00

had my last prac test today and results are out after one and a half hour. how amazing. and it's even more amazing to see how the grades are being allocated. i cant help feeling that everything is weird. cos it doesnt make any sense. to me, that is.

but well, hope everyone's feeling ok eh! next wed will be the last day alrights(:

so it's wii tmr and kite on sunday. time to enjoy myself! need a job though, but 2weeks holidays aint helping cos it's like a damn short period for a job. hope i could find some event jobs, at least get some money rolling in. or perhaps i should jus try my luck and play mj more often and earn my income from there heh! oh no, i sound like an addictive gambler. chop my hands please cos it's getting more and more itchy as i continue typing.

im getting amnesia. seriously. forgot to copy my assignment to thumbdrive and hence, forgot that i need to hand it in by today. deadline my friend. annateo wat are u doing. ur memory is failing you do u know? sigh. no printer at home is the worst thing on earth. first, after ur research, u cant print them out. second, u always have to rely on others to help u print, which sometimes it's quite paiseh in the long term. third, u will forget all about your assignment cos u dun have a printer to print out and put inside ur file. so somebody buy me a printer please, oh and of course with unlimited colour ink provided. haha! i promise i will save the ink and not anyhow print ok(:

been exercising alot recently. at least i will start running once per week. not bad rite! i can join a marathon alr! tsktsk aerobics class was fun today but kind of feel bad for the instructor :/ muscles start to ache alr. aerobics really get ur muscles working eh. next week we are doing steps! but i realised that i will start to have anterior knee pain if i exercise for too long. fellow classmates, come make a diagnosis for me haha.

on a sidenote, WHO GOT JOB LOBANG PLEASE TELL ME THANKYOU(:

(ignore the tagboard ok. lest more ppl start scolding me hahahahahahha)

2009-05-30T21:32:00.001+08:00

i think ive given up. seriously.
it's tiring to keep hoping that you will change for the better.

2009-05-26T19:12:00.002+08:00

ive finally given up on bus 45 cos not only its pissing me off, the passengers who board that shitty bus pissed me off too. so i made a promise to myself that i will never ever take 45 again unless it comes first like duh. haha

so glad i had karen yesterday to curse and swear tog with me! was seriously boiling inside. i was wondering if that nyp year 1 girl even knows how to board a bus. when there's so much space to squeeze ppl in, she chose to allow only one of her leg to board the bus and the rest of her body on the outside. so may i know if that's the new trend of boarding a bus? or is it that she wanted ppl to notice her not-that-good-looking legs so much so that she has to make a pose with one leg on the doorstep of the bus and the other still standing on the pavement. please u should see how disgusted i am, to be blocked by her not-so-good-looking leg and how she sway her body like who knows what she's doing. and the next moment, the bus driver close the door and drove off. so quickly she withdrew her legs. (should have kiap her leg man!)

happy liao lor. happy larh? the bus door close right in front of my eyes when i should have alr been in there happily. because of her leg and im late for school?! still have the cheek to show the paiseh paiseh face and smile at me. you should have come and take a look at my face. i look as if im on the verge of amputating her not-so-good-looking leg and also near to digging her intestines out. can somebody teach this xiao mei mei how to board a bus thankyou. she has to stop being a pest to society.

thanks karen for cursing with me. and zhiyi cheering me up by saying she will treat me milo. (eh where is my milo ah? haha)

school's been like a hell this whole week. it's lab and lab and lab. practise and practise and practise. stethoscope and stethoscope and stethoscope. crutches and crutches and crutches. so tiring lor tsk. okay back to researching for PBL now. last paper on 5th june! jiayou!

2009-05-21T23:43:00.004+08:00

and it's................

*drums roll*

KRIS ALLEN!!!

woots! OLE-OLE-OLE-OLE...

hahaha actually i knew the results early in the morning! haha but i cant wait any longer, my eyes are fighting and struggling to stay open so i shall jus. blog. =D

okay they are singing we are the champions now. but im too tired to go gaga over anyone of them. even mario stands in front of me right now, it wun help tsk

lab lessons are fun today with motor stimulation. im starting to have juli-syndrome where i will start screaming involuntary. so yea, i kept having lil noises during lab today. and im going running tmr! its been ages since ive exercise can. and during lab, i was weighing myself on the weighing scale and woots! im freaking 45kg! hahahahhahahahaha (okay actually i think the weighing scale is spoilt but who the hell cares eh. im 45kg for god sake!) =D

OKAY THE WINNER IS..... KRIS ALLEN! you know i always find it funny when both of them stand tog. cos u can so see the difference in height. oops. and its no boundaries again. can no longer feel any excitement leh. aiya should have jus gone to sleep right from the start.

alrights as u can see, i blog this entry jus for the sake of blogging. random basically. byebye goodnight. i want to sleep alr hahahhaha

2009-05-20T22:47:00.003+08:00

i think i still cant make a decision between adam and kris. hahahahahaha american idol tonight! in fact now(:

school's been relatively good. but i cant believe that its alr week 5 now and tests are starting in week 7. so looking forward to june holidays! ive got lots of things to do! (woots! kris received good comments!)

celebration of mothers' day and my mum's birthday has been a success! and today we brought her for pizzahut dinner. hahaha time to plan for my dad's alr. lest he got jealous tsk and somebody donate to the anna-teo fund please. im broke like shit. was shopping for shoes with my sis and i dunno why i felt so demoralised by my big foot. when my sis could jus take off from the shelf but i cant. and watever that she tried on, and i really mean WATEVER, jus seems beautiful on her(feet. hahaha) but if i were to try the same design, oh so sorry, i totally ruin it. sighh so ppl with small feet, please appreciate them more alrights(: same thing for skinny peeps. be thankful for the figure eh. stop whining that u are fat when u are not, unless u have improportionate lower half and upper half like me! den u are entitled to whine as u wish hahahahahaha =Pp

retail therapy! haven been pampering myself for almost a year i guess. haha no new clothes, no new shoes, nothing. so ive come up with a plan to borrow money from my sister to get myself some nice clothes and den slowly pay her back through instalments. haha! clever rite! i think so too! =D but i doubt retail therapy will start anytime soon. week 7 is approachinggg and projects piling up. plus my phone died on me again. tsk phones do have a feud with me eh.

my sis made me wanna doll up myself whenever i step out of my house. tsk OHHHHHH angels and demons is nice de lor. i find it so exciting hahaha as if im the one trying to save them hurhur and ttc (which is now m&m) is somehow fixed on monday! haha i guess jy cant wait for it (:

2009-04-27T19:02:00.002+08:00

if you're happy and you know it, give me food (FOOD FOOD!*)
if you're happy and you know it, give me food (FOOD FOOD!*)
if you're happy and you know it, and you really want to show it,
if you're happy and you know it, give me food (GIVE ME FOOD!*)

*FOOD here only refers to my fav like sushi, pasta, otah etc. you can see how deprived i am!! im so glad the ulcers are getting better. at least now when i swallow food, i dun feel as painful. most prob will skip orientation. how on earth am i gonna even intro myself to my group with this voice of mine? haha

today is nua-ing day! karen and jia nua-ed tog with me. hahahaha. gossip girls with daidee. conducive sleeping environment and camwhoring. lets go out play when i get better! you know when u are sick, even if its jus a minor illness, you wont be able to enjoy it to the fullest. at least for me. so everyone wait for me ok! hahahaha I KNOW I AM SELFISH ok shut up.

feels good to go back school! though cant really talk much, couldnt raise my voice, brought the wrong manual, and cant go for sushi buffet today=((((((((((

2009-04-25T20:17:00.002+08:00

ive been eating plain porridge plus canned caixin for three consecutive days. AHHHHH
and when dinner today consist of my fav baked beans, i couldnt care less and grab lots of them. but as i put it into my mouth, i regretted for taking so much of it. because my throat hurts like hell roarsssss. guess those throat ulcers doesnt like the taste of baked beans. sobsob my fav food can.

somebody teach me the fastest way to get rid of throat ulcers pretty please(: i still wan to satisfy zhiyi's craving for sushi buffet lor. hahahaha and ive alr missed two days of school! first time i got the feeling of missing school eh. this is like rare to hear from me de hor tsktsk

i wan to eat like a human againnnnn! =((

2009-04-20T21:28:00.002+08:00

happy 1st anniversary!

love you!

-18th april (:

2009-04-15T12:46:00.003+08:00

struggling with my journals now. seriously i think its a lil stupid to have the layout to be lidat.

1. What happened?
2. How did i respond?
3. What should i have done/responded?
4. What have i learnt from this?

since its supposed to be a reflective journal, shouldnt it be like a free-to-write kind of thing? cos its so restrictive that i have to squeeze out my brain cells to think of events to write about. and its indicating that we have to write things that we did wrongly. oh wells, to reinforce the concept of reflecting eh tsk. if point number 3 doesnt exist, i would have tonnes of things to write haha! idiot.

and now wat. ive spent freaking 3hours daydreaming, k-ing with the radio instead of writing the journals. kill me please. its time to have some self discipline annateo. and wat am i doing here in blogger omgoodness.

school's starting on monday! time indeed flies when you are having fun. holidays sudd seem so short that i cant even rmb wat ive done for this holiday except having attachment. haha and look at my timetable! i wan to bite the person who drew up this qing tian pi li timetable. longest day of the week should be awarded to tuesday. 8am to 5pm with one hour lunch break in between only. i should have been shagged to death by the end of first week hur.

time to keep my promise to myself. to start studying at least once a week after school or smth. my gpa is dropping ahhhhh. i wan to pull it up to 3 larh! so students of physiotherapy, its time to mug like a mugger and get good grades eh! (:

2009-04-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

first ever fainting experience
a bunch of lovely patients
a group of passionate healthcare professionals
fun-loving 'cow' who shared an amazing kind of conversation
super experienced physiotherapists
the non-stop transferring practices
the endless washing hands exercises
first annateo singing concert in front of patients
cute TAs who never fails to made me wu nai
gossip sessions among patients, TA and me
elderly exercises, taiji and sparring gongfu behind the curtains
zi-high schoolmates in this learning ground
learning of many different languages
handsome PT who unknowingly mesmerized all the aunties and ahma in the wards
blur sotong supervisor we had
countless knowledge throughout this 3 weeks

so who doesnt love attachment? (:

i guess i will miss the place pretty much. though slack like dunno wat but still, its a nice place and ive ended it off well.

on a side note, i think its really time for me to put aside my fears and get a license for myself. save money and get a car! i guess i can never outfight those aunties for public transports.

2009-03-23T19:00:00.002+08:00

now tell me.

who on earth will faint in front of a stroke patient during her first day of attachment?

tsk.

2009-03-16T19:16:00.002+08:00

was in a rather lethargic and anti-social mood. board on a bus after my hair cut, hoping to reach home as soon as possible. noisy bus environment pissed me off a lil cos this woman sitting behind me was quarreling with someone over the phone. so i plugged in my ipod to block off her voice.

and here comes this guy, who chose to sit beside me even though there's like thousands of seats for him to choose. im glad he's a quiet one (as you know, there's some who make damn lots of noise like wat the hell)

he was beside me for 20mins, expressionless, motionless. suddenly he nudged me. normal reaction will be to turn and look at him. and so i did. turned, stared at him, giving him the wat-you-wan expression. den he flashed a super big smile at me and exclaimed "BAOYU!" (or is it bao4 yu2 (abalone?), hmm din really catch it clearly as im listening to my ipod)

being annateo, i gave him the stone face and blurted a word, "huh?"

him: " baoyu? "
me: errrrrrrrrr (while taking my earpiece off cos i realised its not tt im deaf but cos his voice is blocked by my songs)
him: " oh err sorry wrong person "
me: " hurrrr o..k.. (苦笑..)

stunned. both of us. stunned.

and when i wanted to get off the bus, he said sorry to me. HAHA IM LAUGHING IN MY LUNGS. i think its so funny but i couldnt burst out laughing. its so difficult to keep ur laughter within! i cant wait to get off the bus seriously. i think its so super paiseh for him.

must be because, earlier on, he sms-ed someone and i jus nice received an sms. so he tot i received his sms HAHA oops. stop laughing annateo stop laughing.

2009-03-15T13:13:00.004+08:00

you know it when you are in it
you feel for it when you have experienced it
you dread it when you have to go for it
you try it when you persuade yourself to do it
you fail it when you. fail it.

sometimes you jus cant overcome
sometimes even if you have all the time in the world, it still doesnt help
sometimes it gets worse
sometimes you have to laugh it off
sometimes you have to put up with it

anyhow, im kinda into 大嘴巴 now! especially when there's handsome handsome guy in the group haha! 疯狂啦!!

see the guy on the left? muhahahhaa my fav fav fav shuai ge (: KAWAII RITE!

with his 六块腹肌! though actually cant really see larh huh haha!

oh and finally...

怀秋! 怀秋! 怀秋!

=DD envious beh? heheh!

2009-03-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

happy happy birthday to zhiyi! haha 21 years old liao! been frens for 3 years woots! and im glad to have you with me in both jc and poly times(: you've been a great fren! always there for me to nua at you. listen to all my nonsense and wouldnt mind much about me whining cos u will whine with me! haha love you many many!

was kinda shag after a night of cycling plus basketball session on the following morning. my quads gave way when im walking and makes me feel as though im some rubbery girl cos i walk in ultimate nua-ness. limited hip and knee flexion, decreased stride length and increase gait cycle time. i feel like someone having gait dysfunction haha. noticed quite a few of blue blacks here and there. tsktsk and rashes are appearing again AHHH

im so glad that tmr is a stay-home day for me. been out for the past one week! everyday go out can. haven been a guai kia lor hahaha. anw high chance tt i will start aching all over tmr so its time to recuperate before my next exercise day=D awaiting for a more toned and skinnier annateo hurhur

oh i almost dislocate my shoulder during bball jus now. and i almost buang with cars on the road during night cycling lol exciting two days i see.

cant wait for night safari, mahjong, concert, kbox! my holidays are endinggggg boooo

2009-02-25T17:59:00.002+08:00

got sunburnt during the last cycling outing with zhiyi and jieying. and now my face skin is peeling like nobody's business. shall take it as auto-exfoliation! haha!

been a guai kia staying at home doing housework and tiding my room. workout! and make my house sparkling clean is my goal for today! tsktsk

read on newspaper about plastic surgery. and this surgeon says that mostly ppl go for breast enlargement. tsktsk but the worse thing is that among these patients, most of them are actually boyfriends bringing their girlfriends for the surgery. tian ah! qing tian pi li! i totally seh at that sentence can! why got ppl so bad one! small breast not good meh! i think got a lot of advantages lor hahahahhahahaha. like for example, during peak hours inside mrt train, no matter how ppl try to squeeze, also low chance will brush ur breast can. see, low chance of getting molested. haha. eh its true wat!

but too small also not good larh cos wear clothes not nice. AIYA why am i digressing. okok back to main topic. i dun understand why would bf do that to his gf. so sad can! alamak. how i wish i could open up their coconut brain and look wat's inside. i think its hurting to know that ur bf loves ur body like fiona xie than he loves u as a person. dun u think so! i think so! imagine the boyfriend's been thinking "why cant my gf have a body like fiona xie?" wah lao eh. somemore bring the gf to plastic surgery. very guo fen lor! roars. this is too much. rah rah rah. if im the girl, im will give him a big tight and fat slap, poke his eyes, kick his dick so that he got no fathers' day and roar a loud BYE to him. muhahahahaha.

yet again, i dun understand why are there girls like this. bf bring u go surgery leh hello. if it fails u got no more breast. haha ok sounds funny to me. and den ur superficial bf will dump u like how he dumps tissue. why must listen to him?! dun they know how to protect themselves? sighh. its so gonna hurt their own pride and most imptly, their parent's heart! imagine ur future son-in-law gets ur daughter to spend a huge amount of money jus to up the bra size to like C? D? wah lao eh. when u get old also will sag lor. tsktsk

if its because the girl wanted it herself den ive got nth to say. anyway those above are directed at guys who wanted their gf have big breast=.=

is it jus me? cos i got kinda agitated when i read tt particular sentence of bf bringing gf for plastic surgery. and den i roar-ed to my sister, thinking why are there such evil beings. sobsob. wat has happened to this world? where everything jus became superficial. where is the love~

2009-02-20T20:26:00.003+08:00

exams are finally over! its time to take a break and enjoy while we still can! cos there might be a possibility that we wun get any more holidays after this. one month only! must play hard! =DD

and like wat jieying said, both of us are experiencing post exam symptoms. whereby i feel so weird and uneasy not studying after getting back home from school. and somehow got a tinge of guilt when im watching tv and surfing endlessly. but its holidays annateo! stop thinking of books! haha

been rotting at home for the past two days! tian ahhhhh. and extremely tired for god knows why. anyhow, im so gonna get a job for this holiday. its time to get monehhhh(:

anticipating:

kbox and mj session with sis and family!
kbox and movie outing with jc clique!
mj and seafood outing with sec clique!
mj and cycling outing with poly clique!
zoo and cycling outing with markorr!
marina barrage outing with starhub peeps!

hmm one month enough to play meh! aiyo(:

2009-02-16T00:47:00.002+08:00

approximately 11 more hours to anat paper. im so not prepared! and look at the time! 1am in the MOREEEE-NING! and im left with like half the studying untouched. good luck to me. haha i seriously need lots and lots of luck now! i promised to be a guai kia and not do last min mugging from next sem onwards(:

so who's gonna give me their luck?! u got 11 hours to transfer them to meeeeee haha ok crap ignore me(:

2009-02-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

can somebody teach me how to stick my eyes onto the pile of notes in front of me without drfiting my mind away or look through the paper as though its invisible?

TIAN AHHH. after mutiples of slapping myself awake, i still cant seem to find the momentum for studying. wat happen to my last min mugging?! ahhhhhh i can so feel that the notes are secretly laughing at me cos i have no idea wat's written on them. its jus 10 simple lecture notes anna teo! conquer them man! muhahaahahaha

but... i cant. sighh

ok watever it is, tmr's the paper roars. i have practically nothing inside my brain. ahh shucks. and i think the only thing tt can be contained inside my brain are alex's notes. haha wat the hell. this shows how reliant i am.

2009-02-10T20:12:00.002+08:00

either stoning or sleeping. i cant concentrate on biomec! roars

thanks jieying for the bean present! haha very cute and im so gonna get the one with the swing(:
and the new channel 8 show on lawyer is so super nice! the main lead is so funny and i like him haha

OKAY BACK TO BIOMEC ROARSSSSSS

i feel like im drowning in the ocean
somebody come and take me awayyy

2009-02-06T16:08:00.004+08:00

two down. and im left with 4 more exams to go. like finally(:
cant wait for holidays. its like becoming the best thing on earth. and tmr meeting up of jc clique for reunion and last gathering with yq. she's flying off on sunday! been ages since i last saw them. i dunno if its because of my busy school life or isit jus because of me alone. that i cant be bothered to contact anyone. as much as i know the problem exists, im becoming more and more lazy at jio-ing ppl out. perhaps im jus a lousy friend.

i enjoy being with myself nowadays. ive never thought that spending time alone can be tt great. or maybe ive been living a life too hectic that i didnt have the chance to. a time to think of solutions to problems at hand. a time to block out all noises and live in silences. a time to self reflect.

how do i go back to my normal self? i want to know.

i got cravings for donuts. and my riceball beancurd(:

2009-02-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

happy birthday mark mark! (:

2009-01-29T00:55:00.001+08:00

i feel so lousy. real lousy.
plus im very much enough of researching cos its driving all of us crazy.
who the hell will chiong project like siao during cny. sighs

2009-01-24T00:41:00.001+08:00

that's why i love karen. haha thankyou dear for everything that you have done for me. deeply appreciated(:

2009-01-20T20:09:00.002+08:00

anatomy prac tmr! and im so not prepared. ahhh

im in the holiday mood alr. looking forward to shopping tmr! jiayou mugging annateo! =D

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳

<3.

2009-01-15T18:04:00.003+08:00

i dun understand why is there such uncivilised aunties who see humans as evil beings and would rather show their unfriendly side than to acknowledge the truth. it's worse to even know that they are educated people and yet they handle issues in such a. erm crude way.

and when a kind soul like me, anna teo, whom you will hardly get to meet (haha) wanted to take a step back and let the issue rest, ended up being a scapegoat for nothing. this is wat you call as it doesnt pay good to be kind. so next time i shall jus let my inner devil come out and scream it's lungs out at them. ohh and i will cross the roads as i wish, cos sbs tends to bully me and made me miss my bus right in front of my eyes. not once nor twice mind you.

watever it is, im f-ing pissed at them cos im so wrongly accused. wish i could give each one of them a tight slap. why bother to comment when u have no wish to argue? going on and on and on like nobody's business. den at e end of the day, make themselves seen as the victim and me? some uneducated kid cutting their queue when they themselves deviated away to such far distance. sighh moronic acts.

anw, exams are finally ending. erp approximately in a month's time. 19th feb marks e last paper for semestral exam. i wan to heave a sigh of relieve but i realised that the never ending tests and exams made me lose all hopes of getting my freedom back. its been far too long. the drags and everything is making everyone or in fact me, so lethargic and restless. plus the everchanging timetable is making me mad. its in a mess now and i dun even know which lessons are on which days. how great is tt hurhur. anyhow, im still looking forward to 19th feb! =D

haven been using lappy for quite some time. and as i went into facebook for two times. twice, my pets received 22 presents and 23 presents respectively. haha mostly given by abuuuu. my pet is so loveddd. irresistable cute-ness i guess. jus like me! ok dun vomit.

chinese new year is coming! ive yet to buy any new year clothes! somebody save meeeee. im a kind soul(:

2009-01-02T14:28:00.002+08:00

happy birthday jia!

im dearest dearest sister who always attempt to crack jokes but failed terribly. hahahahahaha its amazing thinking of how long we had knew each other. 8 years and still counting! or maybe its 10 years alr haha! ok nvm its a secret tt only both of us know(:

we've been through both good and hard times tog. still rmbed us having a big quarrel back then. but im glad tt everything is ok and that we are still close frens. she's always giving in to me, listening to my crap without fail. and even though my jokes arent tt funny, she will continue the joke and ended up taking the rap for me. though im e one who started e stupid joke but everyone will be giving her the =.= face instead of me. haha

irritating at times. for example when i whine, she will ask me to shut up. haha but i will still love herrrrr.

she is my first ever fren in my life. without her, i might not be who i am. probably still out dere wandering alone in the streets. happy birthday jia. my bestest fren forever(:

2008-12-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

finally went for the epa practice today. been a lazy bumbum and pon them all. finding all sorts of excuses for myself. haha watever it is, it did clear a few doubts i had for ultrasound so not too bad. plus meeting of zhiyi they all! haha been long(:

partying and partying. but i got no photos! roars im still sad that my phone died on me. its been a year alr. sobsob. and no one is online to send photos to me! ROARS christmas means dun need come online mehh. HUH irritating piece of shit one by one. christmas big ah. hur

ohh mentioning tt. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. HAHA.

this is actually the official first year tt im celebrating christmas. seriously ive never been so into christmas before until this year. its a year to havocccccc. hahaha but im so broke! ahh *pulls hair* plus i lost heavily on mahjong today. blah blah its a lousy day. not tt my skills not good ok. jus tt lady luck is not with me. and i realised the seat tt ive sat on previously is a good seat ok. cos when having a second round, ppl started winning. though i lost rahhhhh. like wat ive said, lady luck is not with me. sobsob

partying with mark's frens are fun. they super amusing. haha but everyone drop dead pretty soon. hur slept all e way till morning. and partying with sec school clique is super fun too. though they are obsessed with the little nyonya which i condemn totally cos i think its kinda stupid. but i still managed to get them to play the level 0 to level 7 game! haha damn fun. especially when both me and karen got ki siao out of e sudden. we practically went crazyyy. ok wait. ki siao = crazy. sighh ignore my usage of words. hahaha

and cos no one is online to send me photos, so i kop from jia's blog. MUHAHAHA clever me.

group photo. she only post those glam ones. hahahaha

and this is super nice! one of e best shots. we finally succeeded after millions of tries. lol

anyway gift exchange! im so loved by all my frens. tsktsk happy girl in e world!

and yesterday went vivo and marina barrage with mark. next time shall fly our kite there. its super windy and if tt stubborn kite still choose not to fly, we shall chuck it away and get a new one! woots!

enjoy the remaining 10mins of christmas ppl(:

2008-12-17T11:32:00.002+08:00

im sorry for not taking a good look at you for the past few months. im at fault and i sincerely apologise for it. i know ur existence really. i didnt mean to neglect you nor treat u as invisible. sometimes i do scold you but that was for ur own good. but i do praise you at times didnt i? but watever it is, please do not do any silly stuffs again ok. you are scaring me.

my dear fish, im glad that u had chosen to jump out of e fish tank attempting to commit suicide because today is e day tt i had finally taken a close look at you. you've grown up! so big and humongous tt u freaked me out totally. but please for god sake dun jump out again. u wun be so lucky e next time though. u shld feel glad tt i chose not to go school today for e practise session. if not u shld be dead by now and your fate will be sealed. you scared e hell outta me and i swear half of my life is gone seeing you suffering without ur precious water.

so now u have experiment how high a level u are living at now, please be obedient and swim in ur cosy little tank. if not ur grave will be at the smelly rubbish chute which u wouldnt wan urself to be at. terrible fish arent you. thats not a way to test if u are having any haemorrhagic condition alrights. i wun be doing EPA stuffs on you despite the nearing of my exams so no worries eh(:

finally having my holidays! though not exactly cos when school reopens, i will be starting exams! how great woots. been playing alot these few days. night cycling, advanced christmas celebration, advanced celebration for amanda's birthday, my sister 21st birthday party. and tonight meeting of my lovelies juli and yl=D

haven got enough sleep. too much things to do alr. and the guai kia me skipped the practise session today due to plain laziness. but hey, i saved my fish! haha. ok the guai kia me is gonna start studying alr. feeling guilty for not going school. haha will have more updates after christmas. plus photos too! realised my blog looks very wordy. plain laziness again to upload photos! hahaha ciaos`

2008-12-01T16:12:00.003+08:00

hectic week for me. maybe one day i should really jus chop off my legs and stop running ard so tt i can be a guai kia, staying at home to mug and spend more time with my parents. im glad ive survived today even though i really wanted to kill myself before i step into the examination room. the result of underestimating the time tt i have.

its getting from bad to worse and to bad at e moment. i had smth in mind alr and im surprised by how i can accept this situation. it seems like e sky is gonna fall any moment but im still taking it easy. amazing isnt it. i guess its really true that as one grows older, one gets more open-minded. taking things at his/her own stride.

been thinking alot lately. i would have rather both be happy, even if it would have mean an internal emotional toil in everyone. it hurts to hear the word hate, to hear how the dislikes come about. nonetheless, i still hope that the recent communication with each other would have release some tension and knock some sense into any of us.

it has always been going on. jus tt we chose to ignore it and tot tt it will never ever become something so serious. but it turned out to be so, though. when everything accumulates, jus one small trigger will cause a big mess out of it. stupid and senseless. its all inside one's temper and how one handles the situation. everyone's at fault. i dun deny mine too. but i guess e most important thing is still communication afterall. bearing with it will make things worse. but not considering other people's feelings doesnt help much either. it could have been how we react to certain things in life that cause such a big issue. and when both had e mindset that both are 'that' kind of pattern, it remains, forever. until one day, when finally, both decided to sit down and have a good heart-to-heart talk, may the misunderstandings or wat-so-ever be resolved. but i doubt so. its gonna be e last time, maybe not for sure, but 90%.

isit that as time passes by, disapproval comes along and destroy that little love that is left between two person? so much so that every little thing will lead to a whole lot of arguments and putting down of each other. it sucks but the hack-care attitude makes it unbearable. i see the agony in e eyes and feel the pain that both are going through. ive reflected, ive commented, ive done watever tt i could have done. but its still not up for me to decide.

its always amazing to see how two ppl meet, fell in love at first sight, and decide to be with each other for e rest of their lifes. i always admire those loving old couples, still holding hands to support each other when walking or getting up/down the stairs. i ponder over wat's the thing tt makes their relationship so strong even when their hair turns grey. wanting to grow old together with each other? or to fufil the marriage vows tt they had taken decades ago? profound and i couldnt fathom.

irregardless, i hoped for e best outcome and i will welcome any form of talks anytime. even if i would have sacrificed my studying like yesterday, im willing to listen(:

2008-11-22T09:23:00.003+08:00

nice catching up with my lovely clique ytd. haven been meeting up tog since xp's birthday on april. and im still glad tt we are keeping in contact even though everyone's super busy. satisfied my craving for pastamania ytd! and finally i found someone to sing along with me. its comforting to know tt at least there are still ppl thinking tt weijian's emo song is damn nice(: haha especially after wat jieying and michelle commented on how "normal" it is=Pp

been roaring a lot lately. roars! cant blame. ever since being caught by a love-to-hao-lian lecturer on thursday, my roar-gland has been activated. secretion of roar-hormones are hyperactive. flowing through all my blood vessels. and e fact tt from ytd's meetup, i got to know more about tt love-to-hao-lian lecturer, it made me roar even more(: oh wells i jus felt irritated by how she put across her inentions to us. and watever tt she said in e office are totally pissing me off. because i dun see e reason why by wearing shorts and slippers to school = bad example. and by emphasizing on how clever ur course of students are, show even more of ur biasness. digressing i must say because wats our attire gonna do with how well ur students score for olevels? if they are good, no matter how "bad" we are, its not gonna influence them to become as "bad" as we are isnt it?

ridiculously funny. this school is so damn sucky. healthcare professionals are supposed to have their professional image. no doubt about tt. but being professional is not all about how u wear isnt it. and wats e diff between slippers and sandals? its jus a stupid strap round ur ankle. and i abhor e person who invent tt stupid strap round e ankle. roars.

anyhow, i dun like wearing long pants. so im jus gonna continue wearing my lovely little shorts and slippers=DD and if suayness sets in and i see those love-to-catch-other-course-students-but-not-their-own-course lecturers, i can always siam or run. tts wat legs are for(: imagine kena fine $50 for each piece of inappropriate attire, i might as well ask my dad to straight give them my pocket money. anw its a form of extortion. roars. my slippers dun even cost $50. my lovely little shorts are bought during sales. hur so why should i pay roars. and mind you, even not wearing lanyard is deem as breaking e school rule. added another $50. this is crazy roars!

enough of my rattling. haha time to study how my brain and spinal cords works(:

2008-11-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

mugging with yl today wasnt exactly tt unproductive. its jus tt we havent been meeting up with each other much. so much so tt 90% of our mugging time is used for chit chatting. haha

nice catching up and conducive environment to study(:

and in all my 19 years of life, ive always been a super guai kia(like real i know). jus tt on this particular day, ive told a white lie. almost forgot my lines in e script actually. haha but luckily i rmbed at e last second and blurted a yes instead of a no. phew. its not easy to tell a lie i realise. haha! but i believe a white lie wont be tt bad afterall. eventually i still get to be e first fren-passenger in our dear yl's car=D i guess tt's e main point i want to emphasize on.

dun u feel honoured to have annateo to be ur frst fren-passenger? hurhur=D

2008-11-18T00:21:00.002+08:00

I LOVE ABU!

cos she got me this! and im so gonna get the remaining six soon(:

2008-11-09T17:28:00.002+08:00

finally got to eat mcgriddles! haha i know im super lag. ppl had hundreds passing thru their stomach, intestines and out of their anus but mine jus got its first this morning! but i chuatio lor. the picture show so big den i tot its really big and tall. so i chose e one without egg. and who knows it turns out to be so small! ROARS. should have gotten the egg one instead. since only add 20cents haha! =X hmm its not bad actually. quite new and interesting to me. haha nice! but im so not gonna get a second one cos i dun think its worth the price.

and while i finally settle myself down to study, suddenly two little girls came over asking for the time. and they asked if they can be frens with us. although stunned, me and zhiyi choose to be frenly and allow them to sit with us. it started off well and both of them are adorable. but who knows it turns out to be an act.

they started saying tt they are hungry and stuffs lidat. so we asked them to look for their parents etc. but loopholes all over. because right from e beginning they say tt their parents are working nearby. and about 10mins later when we had back the same conver, they say they dunno where their parents are. furthermore, they kept emphasizing tt they are hungry. HUNGRY. its so obvious they are asking for money.

the worst thing is tt they became very touchy and had their hands all over us. sighh ok sounds wrong but they are really very daring and initiative. they can go ard to take our stationaries without asking. for me still ok because i kept everything and had my elbow on top of my pencilcase and valuables. but poor zhiyi, her pens are all over the table. they even asked for our hp to play games. sighh luckily she return me cos i dunno why e hack i lend her. so angry at myself. lol

towards the end, zhiyi couldnt take it and ask them to go away cos we are leaving alr. but they ignore us and continue trying very hard to get us into giving them money to eat. end up they gave themselves away lorrrrrrrr. cos one of them said : stop kicking me. i got no other ways alr.

=.=

can u imagine?! they are only 6 and 8 years old kids leh! and they can be like pros trying to cheat our money. my goodness. end up we went off but im pissed cos i din get my pen back. hur cant blame them too cos i got a choice whether to get it back not but i chose not to and forget it. sighh tt pen very nice to write de leh! ROARS. luckily nv lend them my brown pen. hurr

after tt they came back looking for us cos we are still packing. AND SUDDENLY THEY HAD THEIR BAGS ON. shit them. their parents are actually behind us. so they are taught to do it. i seriously felt sad for the kids. so young and they had to go out and do all these crap? their parents can jolly well go and die. somemore, they are not locals. which made me became more discriminative towards ppl from tt country. in the first place, i dun like ppl from tt country. now they make it worst.

i like kids. no doubt about tt. tts why i cant really make myself scream at them or get them to shoo off. but now whenever i hear tt irritating accent, i will feel like slapping someone. hahahaha. anw all these happened at hougang mall mac. so beware if u ever bump into these poor kids. i got their names though. but its not a good idea to type it here so if interested can ask me for e names! hahaha. jus one thing to protect urself larh huh.

ended up din study much. roars!

2008-11-08T21:26:00.003+08:00

OMG the 7pm show is so saddd. sigh though its over alr but im still having the agitated feel of strangling someone. my goodness. nicest show ever lorrr

and i can never rely on my family to bring me to eat something tt i like. sighh supposingly buffet sushi tmr and im so over the moon. den my mum jus have to call it off. roars. I WANT SUSHI. the other day is because of my ahma. now is because of my mum. and school lunch break is at sucha wrong timing tt we cant have our sushi at yck too. WHY IS IT LIDAT! at least let me dream of sushi pleaseeeeeee. ahh see how deprived i am. haha

as much as i wanted to mug like a nerd, i realised i still couldnt overcome the temptations of tv. guess i still need time to slowly adapt to mugging. its hard to suddenly switch over and sit down there quietly to study when before tt you are still playing ard and slacking. hur i need some motivation! maybe if someone would offer to get me sushi, i might stick my butt onto e chair and mug. woots! ok watever. i wanted to make myself sushi de lorrr but i forgot how to. tsk dun doubt me ok! i got learn before de horr. haha=Pp

anw im into cake making now! i wanted to ask farha where she got the brownies so tt i can make for frens and family(:

ahh but yet again. im sucha lazy bumbum. maybe i all talk no action. HAHA ehh dun lidat ok. i will make de lor. jus give me some time. lol

and the more i type, the more i realised im toking to myself. sigh SEE HOW BORED I AM! im actually exchanging sentences with me myself and i. tsktsk okay better go away now lest i typed more crap out. hurr BYE.

2008-11-08T15:19:00.002+08:00

a song tt my brother and sister are having a craze over now
sometimes when we touch by olivia.
which is =.= by me cos. err my craze for it is over since dunno when. haha!

but im so influenced by it now cos my brother has been playing it for e whole day today. now e song is stuck in my head ROARS.

a lot of november babies. celebrated for michelle, lifen and jocelyn yesterday in school after psycho lecture. and im glad they liked e cake(: sense of satisfaction. it triggered me somehow to bake more cakes next time. haha. life's kind of boring. and exams are starting soon i think. yes i used the words i think because i dunno when exactly is our exams period. lol i jus know tt its so gonna eat into my christmas and new year. double roars!

things been happening for e past few days. dun really know how to describe. a sense of disappointment and anger. oh wells but i guess we are not tt agitated anymore. its more of a worrying stage for me now. hope things will get better somehow(:

need to start mugging alr. i guess its cos of the shitty timetable tt has been making all of us so shag. jus turn ard and take a look in e lecture hall, u can see all the sian-ed, seh-ed, shagged, bored faces. even during breaks u can see lots of heads dropping down on the lecture tables. trying to at least rest or catch a quick nap. as for me. ive been playing battleships with amanda they all. haha its kinda fun especially when we always got our ships placed at the same spots and ended up killing ourselves altogether. ok yes i admit ive not been attentive in class =Pp

family is going to malaysia soon. SOB! i cant goooo due to school. triple roars! wat am i supposed to do if there is cockroach somewhere outside or inside my house?! roars x4!

anw i cant wait for e rest to finish their exams. seems sooooo longg. okay back to books. roars. i need some motivation to get me going(:

2008-10-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

(:
OMGoodness he's so cute=D

2008-10-25T16:41:00.002+08:00

happy birthday yee chiat.
you are ~~supposingly~~ 19(:

2008-10-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

i need someone to hug and watch me cry without asking why

2008-10-17T23:46:00.002+08:00

went to meet karen. so nice! she bought me shoes=D love her to the mini bits. for e many many minutes and seconds of accompanying me 24/7.

randomly saw a scene while karen is busy with the customers
saw a father asking his little daughter to come over to his side
the little daughter was annoyed and asked " why? "
and the father said " i want to help you stick back your flower "
the daughter reluctantly walked over to her father's side and stick out one of her feet to her father
and den i realised its cos of the flower designs on the shoe tt has came off and tt the father took a scotch tape to help her stick it back
the process of seeing her father getting down on his knee to help her daughter stick back tt flower is so heart warming
jus to let her daughter have nice looking shoes
a surge of emotions jus came rushing into me and i realised tt how often children don't appreciate what their parents do for them

but how suay. the father turned his head after helping his daughter and he saw me looking at them=.= THIS IS PAISEH DAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
and i turned away pretending not to know anything but dunno why e hell i turn back and look at them again
the father is still looking at me and he smiled

LOL i smiled back of course. den faster turned to another direction
as usual karen crap away saying the father tot he still young ah smile at him.....
haha ok anw its meant to be an emo post. but dunno why ended up lidat. tsk nvm guess im overly tired so didnt know wat im toking about. hur anw i survived 1st week of school. tts incredible(:

2008-10-13T18:34:00.004+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL. and its giving me headaches and all. partly cos of the super sucky timetable tt we have and also the consecutive hours of lectures and practicals tt they gave us all the way from morning till evening. with jus one hour of break in between. can u imagine! OMGOODNESS.

lets take a look at my timetable!

monday 9am to 5pm (with only one hour break in between)
tuesday 9am to 6pm (with FOUR hours break in between)
wednesday 2pm to 4pm (this is freaking irritating. cant they put this into tuesday slot rah)
thursday 12pm to 5pm (worst our practical teacher is our sem1 biomec teacher. congrats)
friday 9am to 5pm (and they got lots of combined modules into all the slots WTH)

and today i almost died in school. sighh 4hours straight of lectures is enough to make me concuss alr. and finally ITS BREAK WOOTS! was told tt lessons cancelled cos postponed to wednesday 9am to 12pm. den happily, me zhiyi jieying and amanda went home. decided not to eat den can save moneyyy. and after jieying board the bus, a call came telling us tt there is still lessons. RAH WAT THE BULLSHIT. den we called jy and ask her come back=.= tt was like half an hour gone when we are supposed to have one hour break. bo bian chiong back to school mac and faster eat our lunch. totally SEH like shit=.= and its another 3hours straight of practicals before going home.

but practical today was okay. still got room for us to slack ard and do all the palpations and stuffs in a chin chye way. hahaha and when the teacher ask if there is anymore qestions cos she teach finish alr, i enthu-ly replied no! den she stunned. haha din expect her to hear my reply but yea suay lor. practical today really felt molested. haha and super ticklish. im trying to contain my laughter and trying to act professional enough but i really couldnt overcome the ticklish part. so ended up laugh like a mad woman. tears almost came out larh!

tmr is tuesday and hooray! we got 4hours of break jus to wait for one hour of lecture before going home! how great is tt. hur okay one thing to feel good about it is tt we decided to have badminton session during tt break. can spend tt freaking 4hours and can exercise! slimming! haha

and i got lots of things wanto tell you but you are not here=((

2008-10-10T14:21:00.003+08:00

been a guai kia recently. spending more time at home alr. though still going out everyday. haha! but seriously, staying at home is like rotting at home. cos firstly, tv doesnt show nice shows except for wednesday 830pm channel 8 baby show!!!! and also channel 8 9pm show! haha secondly, internet seriously have nth interesting to do. is either i blog hop or i check mails. period. sighh thirdly, im too lazy to start revising though i wanted to mug like a nerd during sem 2 which i promised myself BUT my determination sucks larh huh. haha!

anw went to have a walk at henderson waves with emily!

hur nice day spent with her. talk about a lot of stuffs. haha not to be disclosed=Pp

and i went tekong yesterday cos its my brother's enlistment. WAS SO DAMN HAPPY COS FINALLY HE WENT IN. WOOTS!
but when i really see him got separated from us, i felt so rah. haha guess i will miss him! sighh din know i will feel emo over it. i should feel happy man! its time he go in and tio tekan by ppl. HAHA=X

but kind of worried cos nowadays got a lot of army guys die rite. aiya sian ji pua. worried like shit cos he is so damn weak and all. tsk somemore he so skinny larh. wind blow can fly off tt kind. how to do those strenuous exercise man. and he always like to faint for god-knows-why. SO PLEASE LET HIM RETURN HOME SAFELY!

also karen's keon. and ruyu's dunno who. return home safely!

tekong is a nice place for chalet! the seaview is so damn nice. and the sea super clean lor. the sand so soft lidat. haha but the journey to and fro is like shit. jus a few hours over there and i felt so shag and all. hur ok so no life now. going out later! =D

THIS IS A RANDOM POST(:

2008-10-07T20:03:00.005+08:00

had a super fun weekend! was having chalet with jc clique for celebration of juli + yl + jas birthday. okay it wasnt meant to be tt way initially but yea we sang three birthday songs in total anyway. haha had a really fun night out with them during the first night. bbq plus night cycling and the zi-high session with shenghui all the way till morning. not forgetting huimin the lamer who provides entertainment for the both of us. and juli the pangseh kia who went to sleep halfway.

all in all I HAD FUN COS IM SO DAMN HAPPY AND I DUNNO WHY=D

guess its been long since we all had fun together in our 9-man clique. glad tt huimin could stay over in the end. had our cake smashing fun in the chalet which we made a total big mess. horrible. i swear i din think of the consequences. haha i bet none of us did. and yea sincerely apologise for starting the cake smashing session. hur so glad tt shenghui started it together with me without an initial plan of it. its telepathy! and tt helps a lot cos at least there is someone to get blamed tog with meeeee=Pp

haha i couldnt help it but wanna say

LET'S DO IT AGAIN! =DD

erp i mean the cake smashing one. hahaha cleaning up is such a chore and way too troublesome. we ended up cleaning the whole chalet. yes its free labour. but when everyone do it together, its a totally different thing again! woots. so yea. when's our next birthday celebration?? tsktsk

anw hope everyone had their fun! and yea happy birthday dear juli! happy birthday beloved yl! happy advanced birthday jasper the pros*******! lol

go ahead and guess tt word. only ppl who played asshole daidee with us will know. HAHA

playing with my pet in pet society! trying very hard to learn how to use facebook sighh. yes im a noob. but facebook is wayyyy too complicated. haha and I HAD SO MUCH FUN PLAYING WITH MY PET. was laughing till stomach pain. my mum couldnt take it anymore so she came over and see wats so funny. ended up both of us laughed like crazy. TSKTSK look at the photos below to find out why!

firstly my lovely cute little pet fell

and then she fell again

this time round all the pets fell tog! and trust me. the way they fall is SUPER AMUSING. jus looking at their overly enthu spirit in falling down and how they think its fun falling all over the place is enough to make me peng flat down to my house floor. hurr my pet can fall for more than ten times in a single race. GOODNESS. everyone should go try! and u will know why i find it amusing. cos i dunno how to describe it here la! its e feeling u know. haha

oh this photo doesnt contribute to why im laughing like siao.

i put this up cos its the very first time tt ive gone to the second place after numerous tries in the race. haha i mean ive been at the third position for all the races cos i find it so funny to see her fall. and so throughout the whole race she has been falling like mad. haha

and now she is sleeping so soundly. SO DAMN CUTE hur OKAY OFF TO WATCH 9PM SHOW NOW! playing with my pet soon! =DD

2008-10-01T20:12:00.010+08:00

sentosa outing on 28th sept with the HUBBERS=D

though not many turned up but still quite fun. lol i admit my volleyball skills are damn lousy but yea. dun laugh at me if not give me a floorball and i will use tt to whack u. haha half the time im trying to hide away from the ball so tt i wun get a chance to hit it and so prevent any more blue blacks on me. hur last time in mj is pain daoooooo. and i wonder why am i e only one getting pain and all. lol am i tt lousy!

now my left hand still hurts like crappppp. shit tt volleyball. hur

DIGG DIGG DIGG stuffs from jessie and joojoo. HAHA GOSSIP GIRLS.

and den played frisbee! ok i think next time we can have more activities cos really not much to do and surprisingly, we can spend hours at e beach jus playing these two.

at e end of the day, we did jumpings!

having our potential energy

changed to kinetic energy

and back to potential energy!

HAHA not bad hor my physics. lol

me yuannshan and jessie! haha girlfff claims tt this looks like I LOVE STARHUB. tsk ok den let it be. hahahahah

the girls! err guys were in the sea splashing water at each other while we go on with our camwhoring activity. and we took a video. supposed to look cool larh but failed terribly so. neh-mind. hahahaha its funny anw.

ok this video took ages to get uploaded my goodness.
after tt sophia joined us for dinner! and we started a u-have-or-dun-have conversation. super irritating but fun(:

went home tog with mark and we saw F1 race LIVE. note its LIVE. HAHAHAHAHA. we jus paid one dollar plus of bus fare and we got to watch it! and the sound is WOW. super loud! amazed. everyone in the bus was like standing up and squeezing to the window jus to see the race. hahahahha. cheap thrills.

met up with girlfff yuannshan today! went to cat's new salon. its nice de lorrrr. still telling ys tt maybe we can try be part time dere and earn money. hahahah super nice chats and catching-ups with her! sooooooo long no meetup le! and yes she scolded me like nobody's business during sentosa outing cos i nv jio her out. HAHA anna is a popular girl ok. everyone wants to ask her out. LOL=Pp

and one BIG NEWS. I LOST FREAKING 5KG. MUHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
all thanks to being sick during my one and only holiday in my entire poly life. woots! but im not complaining. in fact im grateful for it. tsktsk WHO STILL WAN TO SAY IM FAT HUH.

haha *an shuang* i bet got ppl envious of me alr. ppl like juli riteeee erp and yl! lol=Pp

finally see doctor on monday! but tt doctor is crap. ahh i can be a better one even without license. hahahaha so anticipating sat's chalet! cant wait!