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♥ Date: Friday, June 30, 2006
YAY. exams are finally over! i totally cant imagine how ive mugged over e past few days jus cos of a three days exam. ive nv mugged like this before. i mean. even for o levels i nv had mugged till so hard. but den. im gonna FAIL. okie. tts something i hate so much because i spent so much time but in e end wat i got is jus an F for like almost all e subjects. and my mum actually quarreled wif mi over this?! can u imagine? omg. its like. over already mum! no use crying over spilled milk rite?
anyway. watch silent hill ytd. im so glad i din sit beside juli. hahaha. =x but e show is jus plain gross. i mean real gruesome u noe. can u imagine e sight of ur skin being teared off by some ugly giant creature using such great force? and tt person tt died so horribly was actually named anna. =.=
e whole show is like ehh. confusing. as in throughout e whole show my mind is full of question marks. till now i dun even noe wat is e main point of e whole show. no zhong4 dian3. haha.
den on wednesday when im waiting for shaowei to come. i was standing at ard e control station of dhoby ghaut. and then 3 ppl came up and asked mi for directions consecutively. e first one i think she is from china or taiwan. and she asked mi how to go holland. and because im a road idiot, i told her i dunno e way. den shortly after tt another female came and asked mi how to go bartley.[dunno how to spell xD] because i only travel ard e same old places and seldom to here, i once again apologise and say i dunno e way. AND DEN. one more female asked mi for direction again! this time wif e map on her hands and showed mi e place she wanna go but she dunno e direction. and this time. cos i din take geography so i dunno how to tell her e way! oh and she is from korea =)) haha.
at tt point of time, i suddenly remembered wat wcc always mentioned. " do i look like a road directory?! " haha.
im so tired now though i slept for like 11 hours already. but my sis always like to create a whole lots of din in e middle of e nite when its so obvious tt im sleeping rite in front of her. and i woke up for e countless times telling her to shut up and kindly return e fan back to mi. e fan is like blowing in her direction when it was supposingly at MY direction. making mi sweat over nth when i jus wanna sleep. irritating u noe. argh
jus came back home cos i went to order a cake which i hope it will be completed tonight. e reason is cos its my papa's birthday TODAY! haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! im so sorry tt i went to buy a cake so last minute cos after my mid years im so eager to go out and play. so i practically forgot to advance order one nice cake. but this one oso not bad larh. anyway its goin down to e stomach so no matter how nice lookng, when u put it inside ur mouth rite. its still gonna be like. chop up to many small pieces and digested by enzymes. oh my. bio is coming up on my mind. o.O
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♥ Date: Monday, June 26, 2006
CHEMISTRY!! ALAMAK! actually okie okie larh. hahaha. i guess i can get an E or AO. jus not an U can already. and tml is MATHS. omg. i basically forgot everything bout it. cos ever since tt consultation, i nv touch math again. haha. but i shall try my best to chiong all 13 chapters today. but got a lot of nice shows on tv today! im so so TEMPTED.
anyway. when i jus sat down on my table before e exam starts, my stomach started rumbling. im like. =.= why din it feel hungry jus now but always at e wrong time?! den i sat down dere for 2 hours wif e stomach making lotsa funny noises. i hope no one hears tt. haha. den after my paper, i dun feel hungry anymore. WTH.
saw this on friendster.
The Bottom Line
There's a silver lining to every cloud, and today you'll see one much more clearly.
In Detail
It's one of those half and half days -- some good, some bad -- but the overall quality is totally up to you and what attitude you choose to adopt. It may be tempting to hop on the 'poor me' bandwagon and take advantage of the sympathy that's offered, but resist this urge. You really need to keep your chin up -- it will help you get a better view of the silver lining on that cloud. Play the optimism card every chance you get, and you will sway your day into something quite pleasant.
hmmm. maybe its true larh. muz look at things at a brighter side, a better angle. tts wat u can do to make ur life looks more beautiful! okie. i dunno why im starting to crap about this. ahhh. watever. anyway shall not blog anymore until my exams are over and when i got more interesting things to write about. CIAO`
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♥ Date: Sunday, June 25, 2006
o.O im muz be crazy for working on friday and saturday when my exams are like on monday. =.= haha. and i did OT for e very first time of my life. YAY! but its like so boring larh. i swear i wun do it again.
friday OT until 3am. alamak. was like so tired but i cant get to sleep. i dunno why. den saturday got work oso. and im still as energetic. haha. but after work when we gonna eat tt time im like so dead larh. but when e food comes. im energetic once again! especially when im eating my ketupat. haha. NICE =))
and i got like upgraded ytd. cos im serving e VIP guests. and they are so funny can. after e second course and subsequently, more and more ppl left. in e end e table only got like 4 ppl lidat. =.= i tot e food quite nice to eat wat!? haha. and i think roy sabo-ed mi. cos its so impossible tt i'll get to serve VIP because they are e VIPs and cannot anyhow anyhow serve u noe.
anyway ytd on e way to work got this guang liang autograph session! im so excited at tt point of time but he haven arrive yet. and i saw this girl. ZHANG HUI MEI! den i was like exclamation mark all over e place. den ppl tot got zhang hui mei and they stop a while and look. but i see wrongly larh. no zhang hui mei actually. HAHA. so MALU can. aiyo. think ppl see mi as mentally unstable person. and i think i am when i realised i see e wrong person. PAISEH.
and den after i finish exclamation mark-ing, i notice yuyang is dere wif his stead. as in e css guy. he saw mi and i think he sees mi as mentally unstable oso. OMG. so diu lian. haha.
though im crazy for goin to work three days before my exams but i earn quite a lot ok! plus OT pay. and den VIP extra pay somemore. hahaha. im a happy girl =))
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♥ Date: Thursday, June 22, 2006
its so unbelivable. i mean. ytd im like happily chatting wif my sister and den in e middle of e night, my phone rang and i tot it was jus a normal phone call. but. wat i heard is totally unexpected.
today morning, i made my way down wif karen to e funeral. at first, i really cant imagine mi myself stepping onto a funeral ground. because ive only been to once. and tt one time is my ah gong's funeral. tt time i was only like 8 years old. and this is e second time i went. everything looked so cold. probably cos its in e morning, tts why no one came. and tt they can only come at nite after their work. ch looked so firm. so strong. i mean. its so unusual. its fine tt he can cry out u noe. but he chose to be strong and can even toked happily wif us. its a bit of heartpain to see tt he used this method to respond to this matter. we noe tt he is trying to put on a strong front. no one will expect this kinda thing to happen so early isnt it? when i reach dere. i din noe wat to say to him. dere is nth we can really help except consoling him and stuff. but even tt simple thing i cant do it cos he looked way too normal. too normal tt i din noe wat to do to make him feel less painful. e only thing i did is a pat on his shoulder when we are leaving. two pats to be exact. two tight pats. haix. tts life rite? after yc incident and now this. life is so precious.
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♥ Date: Wednesday, June 21, 2006
FOUR MORE DAYS to exams and here i am slacking in front of e computer. dun feel like studying at all. maybe i studied too much tt now all e brain cells had already been killed by those formulas in chemistry and maths. and i cant squeeze anymore of bio and econs thingy into e thing in between my two ears. no chinese for mi so im like quite lucky? haha. =x no offense to those taking chinese. haha.
today im gonna chiong all my bio notes. and i think i cant do it. okie. maybe i should jus gif myself a bit more confident. I CAN DO IT! like real =.=
IM SO GONNA MUG NOW.
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♥ Date: Tuesday, June 20, 2006
my ah gong is going back today afternoon. time flies. and im so gonna miss him MUCH. cos no one to lame wif mi. no one to say funny things and make mi laugh. no one to acc mi to do homework though he dun understand a single bit of stuff i wrote down. no one to haf breakfast lunch dinner and supper wif mi. no one to help mi scold my idiotic brother. no one to watch tv wif mi. no one to scare mi out of e sudden jus to wake mi up. no one to nag at mi in a veh different way from my parents. no one to irritate mi by smoking. [erm. okie tts not a veh good point haha] no one to frustrate mi by splashing water all over e kitchen floor and make mi wipe it over and over again. and no one to help mi catch cockroach and urine on it.
no wonder ppl says its good to haf an elderly at home. a chinese proverb saying that goes : a home wif an elderly is jus like a home of precious. a bit weird i noe because i translated myself. like duh. so obvious. though not exactly 100% correct but its something like tt larh.
and all thanks to my ah gong tt i got to eat swensen on sunday cos its FATHERS' DAY! YAY. okie i noe im like so belated already but i got wish my papa okie. though he is like in malaysia. =.= but e point is tt i still had my dinner at swensen. hahaha. xP
i WILL MISS u ah gong.
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♥ Date: Sunday, June 18, 2006
wahh. he is such an irritating piece of shit. never spare a thought for others. is like all my chemistry holiday homework is in my computer and he go and plug e monitor cable into his cpu. its okie u noe. but he finish using oso never help mi plug everything back. and jus now i plug everything back myself and den e stupid mouse and keyboard like cannot use. i got plug tt in ok! but it jus dun work! RA!! im so irritated.
and now im using his account and i cant do anything bout my chemistry homework. and he is like happily sleeping dere. i wake up so early jus to finish my homework and now this happens! feel like digging everything out from e past and blog it down. see how bad u treat ur sister. irritating piece of shit. how much i hope u really move out of this house.
i make out a timetable for myself and now because of YOU tt i haf to change e whole schedule of today. feel like killing u and my exams is like next week?! by accumulating everything from e past till now, i can say tt my level of tolerance had reached e maximum. i really hate u man. wtf.
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♥ Date: Saturday, June 17, 2006
WOAH! ytd im damn super duper happy! ahaha. finally during this long long mugging holidays period, i went shopping wif karen! YAY-ness. and we were like spenting so much money ytd?! OMG. im so gonna work and earn back all e money. sigh. but anyway i still went shopping! xD
travelling took so much time from us. cos we live at e east and we travel all e way to e west and north side of singapore. lol. and got lots of DING DING. hahaha. my eyes went for shopping too. =DD anyway throughout e entire ytd. ehh. a lot of fun things happen larh. and i laughed till my stomach pain. haha. but i dunno why always when i comes to blogging den i will forget wat i wanna blog!! irritating rite.
but anyway we slept at 4 plus am today. lol. ahh. cos karen come my house ton. =)) we were busy doin some stuffs den after tt we made lemon tea! and guess wat. i saw a COCKROACH. o.O den i so scared larh. den karen took newspaper den wan hit it. but oso a bit scare scare so i wake my ah gong up and ask him to hit e cockroach =x and u noe wat he did? OMG-ness. he used his hands and catch it den throw inside e toilet bowl and den urine on it. O_O i mean he got close e toilet door larh. i din see anything k. haha. my ah gong is a HERO.
tt time was ard 3 am already. den after tt we went to sleep. but ended up chatting. den i guess we chat till ard 4 plus den BTH liao so sleep. i found out tt actually chit chatting in e middle of e nite instead of sleeping is quite erm. enjoyable? haha. like so fun can.
and den my stupid air-con hor. no use one leh. NOT COLD one. sleep halfway den sweat like hell. so ard 5am plus i went to my living room wif my sleepy eyes and carry e fan in to my room. so COOLING. i love my fan. =DD
woke up at 10am. barely had any sleep so now still a bit tired but no choice cos i seriuosly need to mug liao. im like doin nth at all lo. alamak. from today onwards till sunday im so gonna MUG. oh ya. and last but not least. HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH. sorry ar. late by one day but okie larh hor. cos i ytd wish u liao ma. lol.
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♥ Date: Thursday, June 15, 2006
met karen jus now. haha. and she brought mi to her so-called house downstairs when we crossed e road and blah blah more metres of road before we reach place cos she wanna show mi e veh cute kitten. but end up she showed mi lotsa cockroaches instead. LOL. im like scared to death cos e ppl jus sprayed e thingy to kill cockroaches only and we are damn suay to encounter tt. cockroaches crawling all over e place. alive. dead. small. big. male. female. fat. thin. long. short. normal. weird. basically all kinds of cockroaches were dere. such an exhibition.
so in e end we went to e multi carpark instead. but cos its too hot already so we decided to go bedok mac. haha. and YAY. i had my favourite filet meal. haha. and can u imagine how much i ate today? one filet upsized meal which consists of e burger plus large fries and large milo. cos i changed e coke to milo. and den. karen wanted nuggets and so we ordered 20 nuggets. and i ate 10 of it. WOAH. imagine how big my stomach is to contain this amount of food! haha. im so so proud of my stomach. good job eh! xD
after eating i felt so tired. i dunno why. everytime after a meal i will feel like sleeping. haha. but i cant sleep larh. if not i will get fatter and fatter. i still wan play floorball! lol.
anyway. my family is goin malaysia tml! YAY. i got e whole house for mi myself and only I! lalala~ and if u ppl wonder why my fonts become so big out of e sudden. e reason is cos CHEN JIAN GUANG say its too small! veh small meh. LOl.
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♥ Date: Wednesday, June 14, 2006
i noe i went MIA for one week already so here im back! haha. regarding e last entry. wat i can say is im totally dead about it and i cant do anything to salvage e whole thing so might as well let it be lidat and continue living my life happily =))
last sat and sun had banquet. doin morning shift and my conclusion is tt it is damn boring. i mean u can really sleep while standing dere. cos i stood dere for like hours doin nothing. but it was supposed to be a good thing because money are getting into my pockets without doin anything so. haha. well. no comments bout tt. haha.
guess i wun be doin morning shifts anymore. hate e feeling of waking up so early. haha. and encountered eerie stuffs at one of marina square's toliet. erm. or maybe two. haha. den end up hafta stand in e middle of no where and tie our hair wif ppl walking past looking at us wif weird expression on their face.
spent this whole week studying. cos basically all of us are left wif like one more week to study. and i still haf lots to go. having banquet on e 23rd and 24th. dere my two days of studying became earning money.
oh ya. this blog is no longer shared liao cos jia say she no time to blog so e blog is mine already.
AHHH. no mood to blog.
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♥ Date: Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i dunno wats wrong wif my life. i really had no idea. am i supposed to go through so many different kinds of tests tt heaven had laid down on mi? i am jus a simple someone who is still 16 years old. not yet 17. but why do i haf to go through so much. much more than wat a teenage is having. i noe in this world. im not e only one facing lotsa problems. but wat happened ytd had already made mi breakdown. a tragedy. something tt i tot would never happen in my life actually happened. life is so unfair. why do ppl who everything in life can be so free of worries. but ppl who lack things here and dere haf lotsa unimaginable problems. why do most of e rich haf childrens who are so clever but most of e poor haf childrens who jus cant study well? lotsa whys are goin thru my head last nite. but jus who can gif mi an answer? an answer tt satify mi at least?
jus before ytd nite. i had a chat wif my sis. i told her my intuition bout something major is gonna take place in our house. and im so right about it.
u will soon be recognised as an adult. but why u din act as an adult? u argued like e way a kid argued. ur stubborness drives mi crazy. drives my mum crazy. drives my dad crazy. this family is disintegrated all thanks to u. so should i say a big thank you to u? or should i slap real hard on ur face? i really feel like pushing ur head filled wif only coconut juice and nth else down e toilet bowl and flush it down. till it goes all e way and be cleansed wif all those process of sedimentation and god-knows-wat-else and den finally become NEWater. after all these years of studying. wat really gets into ur brain? absolutely nothing but jus bad habits and more bad habits. addiction and wat else? vulgarities. is tt all tt u haf learnt throughout ur whole education life? and u think tt u have no wrongs at all? yesterday. ive seen thru u. ive gif up hope on u. to think tt i kept defending u when dad and mum are reprimanding u. to think tt i rack my brains out jus to help u. but wat i got in e end? ur change of attitude? ur change of e way u look at things? no. none of e above. instead, i get to see more and more of ur rebellious-ness. more and more of ur aggressive-ness.
and now. everything is too late. its too late for u to regret. though now u still haven got a single sense of remorse. but till u really wake up from ur holy shit dream, u will realise tt u had got nth more. no one beside u. maybe u tot tt u still haf ur frens. but u really think tt ur frens really can go thru thick and thin wif u? wif so many backstabbing done. so much betrayal. and u still treat them like gems? but on e reverse. u took us for granted. u treated us like holy shit.
drama took place in my house. from 11pm to 12++am. real drama. scenes tt could haf only happened in drama series had actually taken place right here. right in front of mi. seen by my two eyes. heard by my two ears. quarrels. fights. tears. u made a hell out of my heaven. u destroyed my happy family. dad dun wan u. and here. i declared tt i dun wan u too. im so tired of being e in-between person. i dun wan to be sandwich-ed by e two of u. i jus wan to live my life peacefully. i wan no more conflicts. but how long will this take to come true?
Anna
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♥ Date: Tuesday, June 06, 2006
floorball training today. kinda tiring cos its been like millions of years since i exercised. haha. okie. a bit exaggerating but cant really do much of running and stuffs. cos im getting fatter and heavier due to e fact tt i kept finding food to eat. although i always cant seem to find any. but yeah at least i tried. oh gosh. i dunno wat im toking bout.
anyway. ytd i finally got a sense of relief. i mean. during e first three months. my cg tutor asked us to write down on a piece of paper tt if im left wif one month to live[ forgot is one month or one day] den wat i intend to spend this one month/day. and so. one of my wishes is to visit my long lost yee chiat cos ive totally no idea of where his grave is. and during tt year when he passed away, i desperately wanted to visit him. at least i get to see him once again. because during tt time. everything happened jus so quickly and unexpected. but well. i waited for three years. three whole years and finally dere's this glimmer of hope tt i might be able to find where his tomb lies. its like FINALLY! u noe ytd im so happy. so damn excited. i used capital letters for every single sentence i typed to kenneth. because tts e only way to show how delighted i am. and now. my wish is about to be fufilled. i guess i wun haf anymore regrets in my life. im more than contented.
today after floorball training saw lotsa people. yeah. real loads. saw my class one person wif this some guy from dunno wat class walking together. and erm. my ' kor kor ' wif this someone from my fren's class together oso. but oh well. i read from zul's blog tt they are together already. CHEY. no fun. haha. and ya. still got somemore but i dunno who they are so im not blogging it down. haha. tml have floorball camp! i think so. haha xD
Anna
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♥ Date: Sunday, June 04, 2006
i cant stand my neighbours. i mean its okie for them to haf a lot a lot of relatives. and tt they like to visit each other everyday. but they always create a din for like so long as if we are all deaf. im not trying to be racist or wat because they are not singaporeans and their language is not understandable to us. but e way they cause noise pollution is making mi flare sooner or later. furthermore, my parents do offer incense to my long dead great grandmother and great grandfather. and oso e guan yin ma. those gods and goddesses. and we are not suppose to put anything in front of those statues because if we do tt, its considered as 'obstructing' their pathway if they happen to decide to go for a walk. [tts wat my parents told mi. dunno whether if its true not. haha] and my papa do inform them of tt. like ask them try not to put anything along e corridor tt is rite in front of e statues. at first they din put anything along e corridor so its still peaceful. but as e days passes, they started to hang their washed clothes on this movable hanger trolley thingy and they place e trolley right in front of e statues. so we reminded them again and again but they like keep repeating e same thing u noe. its like so irritating.
other than tt. my house outside got one small pavement tt my parents requested long ago to be made so as to put stuffs on it. so is our property rite. den they always like to put their things on our property. i not trying to be mean or wat. but e fact is tt they nv ask for permission and jus put their shoes or watever on e pavement which is officially ours. den on e pavement got mahjong tables and tables we used for some purposes. and we place plastic bags over it so as not to let it get dirtied. and they took tt plastic bag off and place it on e floor while they happily put their new-looking 'nice' shoe under e tables. like HELLO? does our tables look like shoe racks to u? and does our plastic bags look like garbage?
and and. they always cook stuffs tt doesnt smell like food. i mean they claim tt they were boiling some sort of soup. but seriously. tt doesnt smell like any kind of soup tt i ever had before. because e soup tt they boiled is not appealing to my nose. in fact everyone's noses. we kinda pissed them off cos we always requested for their door to close whenever we smelled e 'soup'.
their kids always shout and shout non-stop! and today this little boy kept crying and crying. and no one even bother bout him. is like cant someone jus stop him from crying or wat? at least bring him inside e room instead of letting him stay near e door and cry his lungs out while im trying to concentrate on doin my stuffs. okie den. i wonder how many ppl actually live in e house. i mean i can see lotsa ppl goin in and a few goin out. and everytime e guys came back from work. they always like to LOOK inside my house. as if they had nv seen a house before. and its veh veh pissed when somebody kept LOOKING at u when u are watching tv or having ur dinner. i mean if u are searching for ur keys so as to open ur house door den by all means go ahead. but does it seems tt ur keys is on my face? and searching ur bag wif ur eyes on mi doesnt make any sense at all. and so i dun like to open e windows because i dun wan them to keep looking at mi. but tt always result in mi getting scolded by my papa cos if we nv open e windows, they will put their trolley dere again cos they will assume tt no one is at home and they can do watever they wan.
RA!!
Anna
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♥ Date: Friday, June 02, 2006
only had about 5 hours of sleep last night because i was rushing my math summation tutorial, recurrence tutorial and mathematical induction tutorial. other than that. i was also rushing my chemistry chemical bonding part II tutorial. but after all the lessons today. i conclude that i should not have stayed up late at night just to complete all the tutorials. because the teacher never check whether we got do or not. and teacher just flashed answers to us. and i was like WAH LAO. if i never stayed up to do those tutorials then i would not have more serious dark circles and eye bags. THANKS AH.
its so difficult to type everything in its full spelling. if u haf realised tt paragraph above, its all in full spelling. for example cos become because. tt become that. den become then. so on and so forth. so i decided to convert back to e 'broken' spellings. haha.
today saw junyang, sugianto, xu zheng rong, yuyang, zhiyang, adriano and this some girl from css oso at TAMPINES MALL. OH MY GOD. im so excited! but sucha pity cos i dun haf camera to take their pictures down! aRGh. cos we were settling down for lunch at long john silver den saw this crowd ard e cafe? aiya. dunno wats tt. and so i think i saw someone's hairstyle. haha. so we went over and its them! haha. happy day =))
haha. from juli. see them? xD
anyway, after chem tutorial. went far east wif syahida cos she wanna buy e floorball grip thingy. but it closed by e time we reached dere. so alamak lo. is like we reached at 645 but e shop was supposed to close at 7. so ya. i dunno why they close so early! okie den we went to eat dinner together at mac. haha. today kept eating fast food i noe i noe. i will grow fat sooner or later. haha.
den on e way home rite. was on e train. so squeezy u noe. and this some guy stand in front of mi den keep on moving backwards. like HELLO cant u see tt im almost suffocating? and e train is like so full of humans competing oxygen wif mi. plus tt guy is like so TALL? i vomit on ur head. and den when e train reached eunos. i tried to squeeze my way out of e train. den got this couple. think they goin airport so they got their lugguage wif them. and so they occupy quite a big space. den got this over nutritioned and 'chubby' looking ah soh is standing beside them. and e three of them were standing at e entrance dere. so when e door opens rite. they leave only like half of a 15cm long plastic ruler in between them, expecting mi to transform myself to some sort of flagpole and alight e train. and den when i was bout to get out of e train, think i tripped over something and den my right leg tripped over my left leg and my right leg almost got into e platform gap. so unglam larh.
Anna
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♥ Date: Thursday, June 01, 2006
im so so tired. dunno why. anyway. been repeatedly telling myself to forget bout this frenship of 4 years but i guess its jus too difficult to say let go and let go. i mean. nevertheless, we went thru so much. those tears. those laughter. its not easy to forget them all at once. maybe once in a while i will rmb those times when we were all together. seriously, i never tot tt this will be e second frenship tt i lost.
been stoning during lectures today. tried to concentrate but still. my mind started to drift away. luckily yan ling was stoning too. ya and both of us were in our screensaver mode. forced myself to smile today. cos someone told mi tt i shant be sad over this. maybe 1 min for tt sadness and e rest of e 23 hours and 59 mins, i shld decide on my own mood. and so. i tried. but its jus too difficult. its easier said than done. but i appreciate tt. thanks jasper.
been veh lost today. cant concentrate. even when im walking. i can even daze and walk at e same time. bought bubble tea when i reached eunos. and stupid mi take e straw which is smaller in size. and stupid mi din realised tt. so stupid mi went out of sweet talk and started drinking. until e straw got stuck due to e pearls being too big for e straw. and stupid mi realised tt im so stupid to take tt smaller straw but its too late to turn back and return to e shop cos im already far far away from it. so i tried other methods to eat those pearls. and i almost got knocked down by a car cos im too engrossed in poking e pearls using e straw. and den after tt i almost got choked by a pearl cos it jus find its way to e entrance of my throat e moment i put e pearl into my mouth. i felt so dumb-ed.
Anna
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u will nv noe tt feeling. we were once so close and now we are almost like strangers. its okie tt u nv keep contact wif us anymore. its okie tt we all went different paths. its okie tt we lead our own lifes. but why do u still hafta break e only thing tt still exists in between us? e word 'trust' is so important but u destroyed it by ur own hands. u lied. u lied without even feeling remorseful. u lied in front of ur closest closest closest fren. and yet. i still believed u. first question to shoot at mi. am i dumb or am i dumb? ya. im extremely dumb. e dumbest person in e whole universe. to think tt i nv doubt ur words. to think tt u really had remembered. but its all nth but jus bullshit.
LIARS. i met too many. but ive nv learnt to prevent myself from getting hurt. i still chose to believe. in every single word tt anyone else said. im so naive. stupid. dumb. retard. i shld haf stopped believing ever since last year. when im terribly been played a fool by this person who shld be striked by lightning or knocked down by a car or choked to death. but i nv learnt e lesson. because im sucha idiot to see tt all human beings are kind by nature. but now i noe tt human beings are worse than jus a piece of shit. unless u can prove to mi tt other living things are worse than humans. if not dun tok rubbish wif mi.
Anna
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