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i dunno wats wrong wif my life. i really had no idea. am i supposed to go through so many different kinds of tests tt heaven had laid down on mi? i am jus a simple someone who is still 16 years old. not yet 17. but why do i haf to go through so much. much more than wat a teenage is having. i noe in this world. im not e only one facing lotsa problems. but wat happened ytd had already made mi breakdown. a tragedy. something tt i tot would never happen in my life actually happened. life is so unfair. why do ppl who everything in life can be so free of worries. but ppl who lack things here and dere haf lotsa unimaginable problems. why do most of e rich haf childrens who are so clever but most of e poor haf childrens who jus cant study well? lotsa whys are goin thru my head last nite. but jus who can gif mi an answer? an answer tt satify mi at least?

jus before ytd nite. i had a chat wif my sis. i told her my intuition bout something major is gonna take place in our house. and im so right about it.

u will soon be recognised as an adult. but why u din act as an adult? u argued like e way a kid argued. ur stubborness drives mi crazy. drives my mum crazy. drives my dad crazy. this family is disintegrated all thanks to u. so should i say a big thank you to u? or should i slap real hard on ur face? i really feel like pushing ur head filled wif only coconut juice and nth else down e toilet bowl and flush it down. till it goes all e way and be cleansed wif all those process of sedimentation and god-knows-wat-else and den finally become NEWater. after all these years of studying. wat really gets into ur brain? absolutely nothing but jus bad habits and more bad habits. addiction and wat else? vulgarities. is tt all tt u haf learnt throughout ur whole education life? and u think tt u have no wrongs at all? yesterday. ive seen thru u. ive gif up hope on u. to think tt i kept defending u when dad and mum are reprimanding u. to think tt i rack my brains out jus to help u. but wat i got in e end? ur change of attitude? ur change of e way u look at things? no. none of e above. instead, i get to see more and more of ur rebellious-ness. more and more of ur aggressive-ness.

and now. everything is too late. its too late for u to regret. though now u still haven got a single sense of remorse. but till u really wake up from ur holy shit dream, u will realise tt u had got nth more. no one beside u. maybe u tot tt u still haf ur frens. but u really think tt ur frens really can go thru thick and thin wif u? wif so many backstabbing done. so much betrayal. and u still treat them like gems? but on e reverse. u took us for granted. u treated us like holy shit.

drama took place in my house. from 11pm to 12++am. real drama. scenes tt could haf only happened in drama series had actually taken place right here. right in front of mi. seen by my two eyes. heard by my two ears. quarrels. fights. tears. u made a hell out of my heaven. u destroyed my happy family. dad dun wan u. and here. i declared tt i dun wan u too. im so tired of being e in-between person. i dun wan to be sandwich-ed by e two of u. i jus wan to live my life peacefully. i wan no more conflicts. but how long will this take to come true?



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