♥ Date: Thursday, June 22, 2006
its so unbelivable. i mean. ytd im like happily chatting wif my sister and den in e middle of e night, my phone rang and i tot it was jus a normal phone call. but. wat i heard is totally unexpected.
today morning, i made my way down wif karen to e funeral. at first, i really cant imagine mi myself stepping onto a funeral ground. because ive only been to once. and tt one time is my ah gong's funeral. tt time i was only like 8 years old. and this is e second time i went. everything looked so cold. probably cos its in e morning, tts why no one came. and tt they can only come at nite after their work. ch looked so firm. so strong. i mean. its so unusual. its fine tt he can cry out u noe. but he chose to be strong and can even toked happily wif us. its a bit of heartpain to see tt he used this method to respond to this matter. we noe tt he is trying to put on a strong front. no one will expect this kinda thing to happen so early isnt it? when i reach dere. i din noe wat to say to him. dere is nth we can really help except consoling him and stuff. but even tt simple thing i cant do it cos he looked way too normal. too normal tt i din noe wat to do to make him feel less painful. e only thing i did is a pat on his shoulder when we are leaving. two pats to be exact. two tight pats. haix. tts life rite? after yc incident and now this. life is so precious.
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